[Humpty Dumpty]

Right now I have so many good things happening that should make me happy, but all I can think about is killing myself.

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Very blunt statement ahead about suicide

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All I can think about is blowing my brains out or stabbing myself in the heart.

My brother has a philosophy "There are worse things than death." I agree & say the same thing about living. What if I mess up and end up a vegetable the rest of my life, or horribly disfigured? That is one thing that has held me back. Maybe one day I will have the courage to do what needs to be done.

I am well right now but 6 months ago i was close to where you are. I am so glad you have at least one thing holding you back. As for courage, you already have some. It takes courage every time you face another day.

[Humpty Dumpty]

Originally Posted by TheSadGirl

As for courage, you already have some. It takes courage every time you face another day.

It doesnt take courage when you have no choice. My choices are suicide or continue on. I'm too much of a coward for suicide. So I have no choice.

[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by Humpty Dumpty

It doesnt take courage when you have no choice. My choices are suicide or continue on. I'm too much of a coward for suicide. So I have no choice.

I understand why you feel that way. I hope one day you look back and see your true strength. Depression causes us to sell ourselves short so often.