[pixiedust72]

As I've said in other posts, I've been going through some hard times. For the past few months, I've beat myself up everyday about little things. It didn't really effect anything then because I didn't care if my life was good or bad. Now it's like I can't do anything without feeling absolutely awful after. If I see a friend somewhere and have a conversation, for the next few hours I'm just thinking about how stupid what I said and did was and how they probably hate me. If I look into a mirror, I spend the next hour or so thinking about how much I hate how I look, things like that. It's like I can't do anything without feeling horrible about myself which just makes me not want to do anything. How do I break this habit? I feel like I may be in too deep.

[ptangptang]

Firstly, i'm the same. I do stupid things and then beat myself up over them all the time. I imagine there are a lot of us out there. Secondly, lets be positive. You have a friend , hopefully one of several. If they are a real friend they won't be thinking how stupid you've been and even if they do they probably put it down to one of your idiosyncrasies. Why would they hate you?
Try and do things that make you feel good about yourself. For me it was exercise. but just getting things done makes you feel better. maybe look at the accountability thread on here and post some things that you want to achieve and do them.
Get into good habits and healthy thinking. I'm trying. Sometimes very trying, haha. Good luck.

Originally Posted by pixiedust72

As I've said in other posts, I've been going through some hard times. For the past few months, I've beat myself up everyday about little things. It didn't really effect anything then because I didn't care if my life was good or bad. Now it's like I can't do anything without feeling absolutely awful after. If I see a friend somewhere and have a conversation, for the next few hours I'm just thinking about how stupid what I said and did was and how they probably hate me. If I look into a mirror, I spend the next hour or so thinking about how much I hate how I look, things like that. It's like I can't do anything without feeling horrible about myself which just makes me not want to do anything. How do I break this habit? I feel like I may be in too deep.

If someone keeps bad feelings about you without telling you then they are not your friend as you think they are

[pixiedust72]

When I say friends, I don't really mean friends- more like acquaintances. Which is why I don't really know if they like me. And I'm just at a place where I can't stand to not be liked by anyone. I got yelled at twice in two days last week and it was the worst. I spent days alone crying in my room about it. Sounds pathetic but it's an example of how badly I need to be liked, especially now. And yet it can be really, really hard for me to tell if they do. I actually feel like I've become less nice and likeable throughout my depression and I hate that.