[Fuzzybear]

Grrrrr. I’m so tired of having to muzzle myself and to “cope” with all the crap in life without medication. I keep being reminded of this. I won’t bore people with the details. I know I “should” just stuff it up, shut up and freakin “Cope” as we are expected to do in this forest.

I hope I don’t turn into a “hateful” person. Despite those jerks who loved to label me (nobody here) I’m much “stronger” and more resiliant than those who feel the need to harm others are. Meaning the step maternal unit especially. I wish I could just “move on”

But I’m determined to never become the monster that she is

I’d rather die.

Maybe I’ve been “punished” long enough?

[Fuzzybear]

PS I just read a post by someone else in the UK

I may be cynical, but I suspect that far too many of the “professionals” in this forest want us to think, or to feel, that we are “just weak” - put simply, to feel shame

And to not seek the help we deserve

After all the research I’ve done (and I’m not “stupid” - I’ve got a degree...) .. the toxic shaming words of “professionals” will not stay in the trash where they belong.

Maybe I belong in the “trash”

[Rohag]

Sometimes it is best to "scream" - literally or figuratively - and see what happens. That "scream" will find its way out one way or another.

((((((( Fuzzybear )))))))

[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by Rohag

Sometimes it is best to "scream" - literally or figuratively - and see what happens. That "scream" will find its way out one way or another.

((((((( Fuzzybear )))))))

I don’t know all the details of course. But if it makes you feel any better... I do a lousy job of muzzling myself and at the end of my work day I end up feeling frustrated at myself for being so vocal. I did it again today. Not every battle needs to be fought... if only I could ignore most of the crap that goes on all day and just shut up... it’s true that it does come out in one way or another I guess.

[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by Sisabel

I don’t know all the details of course. But if it makes you feel any better... I do a lousy job of muzzling myself and at the end of my work day I end up feeling frustrated at myself for being so vocal. I did it again today. Not every battle needs to be fought... if only I could ignore most of the crap that goes on all day and just shut up... it’s true that it does come out in one way or another I guess.

I’m not sure that muzzling self is such a good idea. The body cries tears that can’t be shed (I’m paraphrasing this wrongly)

(Emotional trauma and physical manifestations )

But in some situations a muzzle is needed

Originally Posted by Fuzzybear

I’m not sure that muzzling self is such a good idea. The body cries tears that can’t be shed (I’m paraphrasing this wrongly)

(Emotional trauma and physical manifestations )

But in some situations a muzzle is needed

Lol but I totally get what you’re saying. There’s got to be a happy medium and I can’t find it.

[marvin_pa]

Bear in the trash... no

Bear ON the trash.
https://www.facebook.com/CalebJamesT...5778791123845/

BTW, I agree with Rohag - sometimes yelling at the top of your lungs can be quite therapeutic (and tends to hurt less than kicking things).

[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by marvin_pa

Bear in the trash... no

Bear ON the trash.
https://www.facebook.com/CalebJamesT...5778791123845/

BTW, I agree with Rohag - sometimes yelling at the top of your lungs can be quite therapeutic (and tends to hurt less than kicking things).

[katydid777]

Originally Posted by Fuzzybear

Grrrrr. I’m so tired of having to muzzle myself and to “cope” with all the crap in life without medication. I keep being reminded of this. I won’t bore people with the details. I know I “should” just stuff it up, shut up and freakin “Cope” as we are expected to do in this forest.

I hope I don’t turn into a “hateful” person. Despite those jerks who loved to label me (nobody here) I’m much “stronger” and more resiliant than those who feel the need to harm others are. Meaning the step maternal unit especially. I wish I could just “move on”

But I’m determined to never become the monster that she is

I’d rather die.

Maybe I’ve been “punished” long enough?

Fuzzy, I hope your day tomorrow goes much better than today! Don't let others take the person that makes you, you!!!!!!!

[katydid777]

Fuzzy, I hope things are getting better!!!!!!!