[RJ42]

Why does it seem that the one truly important feeling in this world, is becoming in danger of meaning nothing? I have been hoping to find it for over 26 years. When you put your feelings out there, all it seems to get you is hurt. I've witnessed dirtbags in both males and females, get l--e. While I am kind, supportive, and caring towards women, I am either treated like a means, or ignored entirely.

I've been alone most of my life. I am comfortable alone, however, loneliness really gets bad. You shouldn't let what people say get to you but, when you hear the same things over and over from different people, it is extremely hard to ignore them. I know a lot of people deal with this issue, and it is very sad. We know we aren't perfect, but we do deserve to be l--ed.

I wasn't born with good looks and I'm aware of it. I feel I'm pretty smart, respectful, loyal, and trustworthy. I'm very sure there are others who feel the way I do. Sadly, the world is a very superficial and selfish place. Life is never easy, but it is what we have to work with. It would be nice if myself and others, didn't have to do it alone.

[TheLifeFantastic]

Oh man, this a hard one to answer. That what is said up there is pretty close to what I have experienced. Then I was told what the problem was by my counselor. It all came down to anger. People would always see me as very nice or they guy who would always help out. Eventually without me knowing a great bitterness grew inside of me that I did not know was happening. I had to do anger management to realize that I had it. Of course this could not be that answer for you. I would try exploring this issue to see if it is what is hindering me.

[RJ42]

Appreciate the insight. I fight with C-PTSD as well so that is a hindrance as well.

[TheLifeFantastic]

Huh, I never really looked into C-PTSD before. I can mention that my background of care givers where terrible. My mom and dad where both where co-dependent. My dad was the felt like a tyrant, and before I learned about my issues my fiancé left me. Very complex relationships that I could write a good amount about, but if you ever want to talk about these things don't be shy in sending me a message.

[RJ42]

Appreciate it. My old man was brutally abusive and my mother didn't leave him till I was 17. Went into the U.S. Army straight out of high school so that added to it. Fast forward to age 44 and an upside down mess. SSDD