[MatBell]

I feel like I only have a few moments when I’m OK. Like now, late at night around 10-11. I enjoy the first coffee when I wake up. But that’s about it. Mornings I don’t like. Afternoon and early evening not too much either. I can do things but it just feels “heavy”. I don’t know. Today has just not been so good..

[Fuzzybear]

I kind of relate.. small windows. Hope for better things

But in fact I live without reference to hope

[MickeyCheeky]

Perhaps we can try to increase those little moments of happiness, step by step, one at the time? What do you think?

[SlumberKitty]

I can relate too. Kit.

[scarlett35]

Originally Posted by MatBell

I feel like I only have a few moments when I’m OK. Like now, late at night around 10-11. I enjoy the first coffee when I wake up. But that’s about it. Mornings I don’t like. Afternoon and early evening not too much either. I can do things but it just feels “heavy”. I don’t know. Today has just not been so good..

Sorry you’re not feeling too good

[MatBell]

Thank you. I hope I can have more windows of happiness during my days. Doesn't seem like it at the moment though.

I'm sick of living this way - it's barely a life. And I don't have hope of it getting better. Can't see why it should...

My therapist is very encouraging, the only person in my life actually. I saw her today. But when I'm alone at night like now her words slip away and I just feel the pain again. Don't know what to do..

[MickeyCheeky]

You're already doing a ton of work with your therapist. Keep it up. Perhaps try to apply what you do in session when you're alone, too. Sorry, I wish I had more advice