[Erti]

I'm pretty sure I'm schizophrenic and diagnosed so. I worry about my depression... Is it the psychosis making me depressed or the depression causing the psychosis or a bit of both. Depends on the Doctor. Personally thanks to a current med increase. My spirits aren't calling me degrading name anymore. They increase my Haldol which is an antipsychotic. Not asking for a diagnosis because I have many of those. Any input is welcome. I'm new to the depression forums.

[MtnTime2896]

It's speculated that I suffer from MDD w/psychotic features. At some point I was being treated (with meds) like I had schizophrenia. In a sense it helped, but it's hard to treat depression with just antipsychotics. Sometimes it's just hard to say, and they really aren't completely sure that that's my official diagnosis. Every delusional episode I've fallen into always had a certain theme involved:

Possible trigger:

That I have to kill myself, for whatever the back story.

I've been untreated for my condition, whatever it is, for last four months. So far, I haven't fallen into another delusion. I do hallucinate quite often, all of them trauma based or voices putting me down and telling me to

Possible trigger:

kill myself.

From what I understand, Schizophrenia can lead to a certain amount of depression over time. Which came first for you, I don't know. Do you remember ever feeling depressed years before symptoms of your Schizophrenia came about? Do you hallucinate even when you aren't feeling incredibly depressed?

[Erti]

Spirits came first which they told me to self harm. However I was diagnosed with depression and BPD because of the self harming and history of sexual abuse. It was confusing at the time. I didn't feel depressed. I did go through a depression without the psychosis when my grandma died.

It's hard to say whether you're depression is making the psychosis worse or psychosis making the depression worse. Stress makes psychosis worse. Don't forget that.

Also, from my personal experience, the voices I heard gave me Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. Hard to believe right? But the people I thought were involved don't exist and the ones that exist couldn't possibly come to my home every single night and torture me till I wake up (under the influence of anesthesia.) Right?

So yes, psychosis can make depression worse, and depression can make psychosis worse too (anxiety and schizophrenia I believe are bad combination, because being in stress really messes up the body.)

Also, you should be more specific with your questions.

(A bit of background if you were wondering : Schizophrenic diagnosed at the age of fifteen. Am a science student with strong interest in zoology, hence the knowledge of psychology.)

Originally Posted by Erti

Spirits came first which they told me to self harm. However I was diagnosed with depression and BPD because of the self harming and history of sexual abuse. It was confusing at the time. I didn't feel depressed. I did go through a depression without the psychosis when my grandma died.

Never, ever do self harm. Nobody, even the imaginary things in your head, has the right to harm you, if you are a upright person who hasn't committed a serious crime.

Acknowledge that you are suffering from commanding hallucination and don't listen to them. Tell them that it's none of their business. I did the same.

Edit : I am sorry for the loss of your grandmother.

I think you should explain the situation fully to your doctor and do the tests he suggests you to go through. Trust him fully and listen to his words.

[Erti]

Not so much a question. More of a statement trying to analyze myself.

[Erti]

Originally Posted by TheLonelyChemist

Never, ever do self harm. Nobody, even the imaginary things in your head, has the right to harm you, if you are a upright person who hasn't committed a serious crime.

Acknowledge that you are suffering from commanding hallucination and don't listen to them. Tell them that it's none of their business. I did the same.

Edit : I am sorry for the loss of your grandmother.

I think you should explain the situation fully to your doctor and do the tests he suggests you to go through. Trust him fully and listen to his words.

I need to talk to a doctor. Not worried about a diagnosis just wondering if I'm getting the help I need.

Thank you. My grandma was my rock.

Originally Posted by Erti

Not so much a question. More of a statement trying to analyze myself.

Even trained psychologists (who have more knowledge of the mind than psychiatrists, who apply the knowledge to treat a small portion of psychological study -- mental illness) have trouble to analyze themselves. Then what are we compared to the scientists who study the mind?


Do you think we can cut our own hair? Of course not, we have to visit a barber. So tell me, can you analyze yourself? I believe medicine is a science and we all should have a mirror (i.e., the practitioner, or the doctor) There are a lot of articles on the internet telling DOCTORS to not self diagnose themselves. Little value is of our own analysis (that includes mine as well.) when compared to the professional opinion of psychiatrists and psychologists.

Do you not feel satisfied when your psych doc tells you about your situation? So the best thing would be to tell him that so he can think about the situation.
A little bit off-topic, but I have racing thoughts in my psych's clinic and he doesn't answer any of them, but answers what the questions I ask. If there is something other than that, please do not hesitate to ask I will try my best to answer it.

Originally Posted by Erti

I need to talk to a doctor. Not worried about a diagnosis just wondering if I'm getting the help I need.

Thank you. My grandma was my rock.

Then I do hope you get a response from a doctor here.

It's I think something to discuss with your regular doctor (not the psych one) and ask him what do you think about it.

[Erti]

I don't trust doctors easily I guess. Different doctors say different things. So many racing thoughts so much info to take in it's hard to understand sometimes. I just want to understand myself a little better.

Different doctors say different things because... in my opinion


1) Everyone perceives mental illness in a different manner. They can and often do agree on things when group discussion is happened, but often they won't have the time to do so. You can see, the existence of Dissociative Identity Disorder is debated still among psychologists.

2) Time. It takes years sometimes to diagnose specific disorders as stated in the DSM V. For example, they have to consider things like, "Were you on X drug for 6 months before the onset of your 24-month schizophrenia or psychosis?" and speaking of psychosis, the patient isn't usually the most reliable person to ask to.

3) They have different approaches and opinions.

[sophiewilson0191]

Better consult a few doctors to be sure.