[Eleny]

I am feeling really down, I’m travelling and have to do 3 months of farm work in order to get my second year visa and am not sure I can do it. I’ve been in a toxic relationship that has completely broken me down and made me physically unwell and now I feel I have nothing left in me. I am so depressed living in a hostel surrounded by backpackers but feeling totally isolated because I’m feeling socially withdrawn. The only time I look forward to is when I can take a sleeping tablet at night. I am desperate to feel better because this is the worst I’ve ever been, before I got here I went a week without eating and couldn’t get out of bed for 3 days. The only reason I got up was because I had to check out of the motel. I am desperate to go home but if I do that I will not get my second year in Australia and that would devastate me. I am going to a GP tomorrow but I’m not sure what good it will do. Everything feels so bleak and I don’t know when it will get better, I guess I’m posting hoping for some support and help

[healingme4me]

Is the person you were involved with, there?

Do you ever meditate? What about a morning yoga or tai chi routine?

Once you get the visa what are your plans? Having a long term goal and something to look forward to can help.

Do you plan on any siteseeing activities?

What's back at home if you were to return?

What is the present nature of the relationship with this toxic person?

Do you have acquaintances where you are now?

Do you have a support network? this even includes people back home.

Have you looked for resources local to where you are now situated?

Do you have any opportunity to pursue some hobbies or activities?

Perhaps it is time to reach out and create them. Doing so here is a great start. Seek our some acquaintances though; this is important. Making that appointment to a doctor is a good thing too. They can be resourceful. And speaking of resources, find out what are available. I am assuming your community has some sort of mental health association. They should have some resources or knowledge of them that may help you. This includes supports and groups for mood disorders. The key thing here is to get the courage to go out.

So too, try to get out and undertake some activity.

What to do in the meantime. Mindfulness has helped both my depression and anxiety. As mentioned, getting out for even 10-15min has done me a lot of good.. I used to also do a lot of writing to an old friend. The act of just getting my thoughts down on paper was very therapeutic.

Good luck. We will all be thinking of you. You are not alone.

[KarenSue]

Eleny, I don't have any wisdom to share, just my compassion for you. My situation seems hopeless to me also.

But we have to find that hope. I try to talk myself into it, but fail much of the time. But I keep trying. We have to keep our head above water and keep swimming until that happens.


I just hope the best for you.

Hugs

[marvin_pa]

Working as an immigrant can be very isolating, especially with the requirements & restrictions of your immigrant status and even more so when surrounded by a constantly changing group of people in transit.

Hopefully, the GP will be able to prescribe something to help your mood, but you may want to find ways to connect with some people that you'll see on a regular basis. This forum is a good start & it might be worth looking for expat forums where there'll be folks who have had similar experiences. The other thing that I'd suggest is to find lodging with a local family, so that you get the grounding of seeing familiar faces every night.

Good luck!

[Fuzzybear]