[Bamboo_RedPanda]

I feel like I'm imploding, and I can see it happening, but I don't know what to do. What's ironic is I should, it's what I do, I help others find ways to express themselves and cope, but I can't do it for myself. I feel so alone and hopeless, like nothing in my life will lead to anything good and that my life is a waste right now. I have no one to talk to. I would normally press a person to find someone they think they might be able to talk to, if they can, and they often think of someone, so I encourage them to try, but I can't even do the same.

Getting a Master's degree doesn't make me feel accomplished, it just reminds me that I have no ability to even figure out how to find a job, so I'd be stuck with huge debt and no future. I mean, I don't even feel good about the way I'm getting it, I just feel embarrassed, no matter what anyone tells me.

I keep comparing myself to this one person I know (though I'm pretty sure I compare myself to a lot of people, as they are all successful and have friends and relationships), and I think I'm jealous of them, they're doing everything right and I can't even talk to them about how I feel like I'm doing everything wrong.

Have an amazing volunteering position that helps people and has prospects for growth doesn't make me feel good. I like it, I like helping people, but I still feel lost.

No relationships, no friends, I'm stuck living with my mom because I'm terrible at life.

I removed more than half of the people I had on my facebook, I removed most of the pages I followed, and I tried to put everyone on snooze just so I could be more disconnected. It's like another me is controlling this. I don't want to do these things, I want to feel better, but I can't stop.

I guess I'm done, so I don't make it too long. It's been a long time since I've posted on here, but I have no one to talk to, I can't even use the service I work for because I've used them before, it would be frowned upon (mainly by me, they wouldn't know).

I just wanted to express myself somewhere.

[Skeezyks]

I'm sorry you are feeling so...uh... lost? (I don't know if that is the right word.) I can relate to quite a bit of what you wrote, in particular the part about removing people on Facebook. I've never been on Facebook myself. But this is my second time here on PC. It was going on 3 years ago now I just became disillusioned with the internet in general. So I dumped every internet site I was on including PC.

I'm a pretty reclusive person, both in real life & on-line. So, when I did come back onto the internet, PC was the only place I came back to. And it's the only site I frequent now, with the exception that I do have a YouTube channel I use just as a place to access music videos I enjoy listening to mostly while I'm replying to posts here on PC. Oh... & I also have a Masters degree... which is another whole sorry tale in-&-of itself. It never did much of anything for me either.

Anyway... I didn't really have any advice or suggestions to offer you here. I mostly just wanted to let you know I read your post... & I wish you well. Here are links to a couple of articles, from PsychCentral's archives on the subject of what to do if you feel lost or empty:

https://psychcentral.com/blog/when-you-feel-lost/

https://psychcentral.com/blog/when-y...-what-to-do-2/

My best wishes to you. Please keep posting!

[Fuzzybear]