[OliverB]

For some reason, it just feel wrong to exist, as If I didn't have the right to do so.

Such a scum I am, to have dare to be alive.

I have done something horrible, and it was beeing born and staying in this world. I bring dispair and chaos by my own presence, though I cannot killmyself because it will create more chaos. I am condemned to bring pain to this world; I try it hard to cause the lesser pain possible, I try to be a good citizen: a good student, a good worker.

I am sorry for posting this.

Originally Posted by OliverB

For some reason, it just feel wrong to exist, as If I didn't have the right to do so.

Such a scum I am, to have dare to be alive.

I have done something horrible, and it was beeing born and staying in this world. I bring dispair and chaos by my own presence, though I cannot killmyself because it will create more chaos. I am condemned to bring pain to this world; I try it hard to cause the lesser pain possible, I try to be a good citizen: a good student, a good worker.

I am sorry for posting this.

I understand your sentiments. I have become so unsatisfied with this earthly life, but cannot bring myself to end it. As such, it brings me great anxiety and frustration; which only adds to the problem.

[cryingontheinside]

I feel similar to what you have described . I want to die but don't want others to suffer as a result which makes me feel stuck and in despair

[Fuzzybear]