i think i'm a ugly person

the guilt has come back ( it was always there but it's worse now )

also i feel so irritated with everything

i find that i feel better one day and than later i hate myself and want to die. But i won't. i can't forgive myself

i wish i had better influences when i was young

i give up on life

all of this is pointless

I'm sorry you are feeling so bad. I'm actually pretty depressed myself so I don't really know what to say. Just wanted you to know you aren't alone

I think you're wrong.

I'm pretty new here, but I can already see that you are a valued member of this online community who has been helpful to others . . . definitely not worthless, pointless, or, in any way, ugly.

Ugh! I hear you on the irritation feeling. I've been feeling like that for the past seven months, pretty much every minute of the day, every day. For both our sakes, I hope it gets better!

So thank you for being you, even though you feel really low about yourself. Others here feel good about you for you.

Hi yogurtss, I struggle with guilt and depression too. One thing that helps me is that I've had bad times in the past, but they always pass and things get better. So hang in there.

Yes, it's a tough journey all right, but you'll get through the difficult times eventually. Just stay strong yogurtssss. It's not pointless but, yes, it does feel pointless.