[MtnTime2896]

How do you deal with them? Do you deal with them? Do you let them play out or subdue them?

More and more I'm discovering that I have no idea how to answer these questions. I always thought I knew the answers. Well, I was an idiot. I never answered them, I ignored every single one. I guess I can answer the second one: No, I don't.

I don't know how I truly feel about anything. All I feel is numb or chaotic, never in between. What kills me is that I've never been this bad about it before. All that plays in my mind is turmoil, grief and "lost" memories. I wrote about what's been going on in my head in another forum (Q&A I think). I think it's taking something out of me. Didn't know there was more to take. I guess there's always more, right up until I give everything. I'm fighting that, as hard as I can, but in order to fight it I need to know why it's there. If I can't feel, how am I supposed to figure that out?

Am I the only one who can't really answer these questions?

[Fuzzybear]

You’re not the only one, I can’t really answer those questions either

Since it isn't getting enough attention , I'll add my response.

1) How do you deal with feelings - That really depends upon what the feelings are. Are they positive or negative? If they're negative, I try to distract my mind by listening to music, or talking with friends really. It helps. If they're positive, well, that's good, I turn the volume up and imagine myself to be a great persona. Grandiose, of course, but healthy for at least me.

2) Do you deal with negative feelings - Yes, of course. I use this site as an interactive journal. I usually do things that distract me from negative things.

3) Do you let them out out - Yes, I do, if they're positive. If they're however negative, I try to subdue them in my mind.

Really, just don't give a crap about the thoughts in your head. I am on the "Thinking all time awake" mod too, a powerful antipsychotic my psychiatrist prescribed made me like this. Not only that it affected my sexual health too... but I don't dwell on reality, thinking about it will do nothing. Instead, enjoy the beautiful and amazing thing called life, however it terrible may be.

"However bad life may seem, there is always something you can do, and succeed at. While there's life, there is hope." - Stephen Hawking.

[mountainstream]