[wisewoman]

I have know been 4 days back to work, starting my fifth. I feel more depressed and anxious and my T says that's to be expected, accept it and keep slowly inching my way back in to a routine. It scares me! What if I really backslide? The anxiety part is a pain and I just want to be okay. It's hard juggling all of the things I do anyway and there is part of me who wants to crawl back into bed for a few more weeks.

[mj14]

wisewoman, your T is right...it's a big jump going from being at home to back at work full time, and it can be exhausting, leaving you vulnerable to the bad feelings again. But keep in mind that you are in treatment, and that will put the breaks on before you slide all the way back down again.

One of the things that my therapist kept reminding me is, make sure I take all of the breaks I'm entitled to, and really use them for breaks...try to use them to relax and recharge instead of doing things like running errands or catching up on other things.

And most of all, be gentle with yourself. You're doing something very difficult, and you need to give yourself credit for that accomplishment. I had an old voice teacher who used to say "keep doing what you're doing"...you're doing what you need to get yourself back to health, and I know you'll be ok if you "keep doing what you're doing."

Take care.
*hugs*
Jo

P.S. Are you on anti-anxiety meds?

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[SeptemberMorn]

Hun, you're doing it again. You're worrying about something that may NOT happen. {{{{{{{{{{{{{{WW}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}} Your T is right. It's to be expected to have a bit of a difficult time. Even "normal" people have a rough time when they go back to work after not working for a while.

Hey! TGIF!! You don't have to get up early tomorrow or face the office! Do what you need to recharge over the weekend. Like it's been said already, "Keep doing what you're doing."






<font color=blue>"Our doubts are traitors and make us lose the good we oft might win by fearing to attempt" --Shakespeare</font color=blue>

[shakes]

Wisewoman,
I am going through this right now too. I was out of work for awhile and just got a part time job. I thought that I would be alright with the transition, but I am having a harder time then I thought I would. Anxiety and mood swings have been quite frequent lately.
The best advice I can give is to take some time for yourself, especially right now. These feelings will pass, but it is important to make sure you are emotionally set until they do.

Stay strong,
Jessica

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[wisewoman]

mj, Sept and Shakes, thanks for the encouragement. I left work early today and came home to rest. I am trying to take it slow and easy. mj, yes I have anxiety meds. I'm tired and I feel fearful of never feeling happier then this. I wanna be happy, and, NO FEAR

[SeptemberMorn]

{{{{{{{{{{{{{WW}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}} You'll make it, Kid! I have faith in you. Everything I've seen about you points that way. Take it easy on yourself and stop worrying about things that probably won't happen!!!! Whenever you get afraid of things in the future, ask yourself "Do I know for sure this will happen?" The answer will probably be "no." That's when you put it on the back burner and get busy playing with your bunnies.

Love ya!





<font color=blue>"Our doubts are traitors and make us lose the good we oft might win by fearing to attempt" --Shakespeare</font color=blue>