[jmcneely21]

Sooo... this is my first post. I've been having serious suicidal thoughts these past few days,

Possible trigger:

and it's honestly been taking everything in me to not do anything.

I'm getting help with this, but it hasn't been working so far (as it's only been every other week, and this process takes quite a while). I really just need a break from everything. Or something I love to distract me every week or more than that.

[Skeezyks]

Hello jmcneely: I see this is your first post here on PC. So... welcome to PsychCentral. Hopefully coming here to PC can be of some comfort & support.

I'm sorry you're having such a difficult time. You know... I've made two serious suicide attempts of my own in the past. So I know a bit about this. I obviously don't know much about what's going on with you. But since you wrote that it's taking everything you have not to do something, my personal opinion would be you really need to reach out, in real life, for help.

It sounds as though you must be seeing someone (perhaps a therapist?) every other week. But, as you clearly understand, that's not enough to address your immediate concerns. We here on PC want to be as supportive as possible. But there's a limit to what can be done in an anonymous on-line community. So please consider taking steps to address, in real life, the suicidal thoughts you're having. And please do keep posting here on PC as well. I hope you find PC to be of benefit.

[Fuzzybear]

[jmcneely21]

Thank you so much for that. It really means a lot to me. I'm now getting more help, as I'm talking to a couple teachers at my school about it, and they're going to communicate with people they know to get me better/more immediate help. I'm also considering going back into horse-back riding, as it's very therapeutic, and it helped me in the past.

[jmcneely21]

Thanks for the hugs!!

[Fuzzybear]