rant about dying alone

okay.

so I recently read before I die by jenny downham, about a woman who has lukemia trying to complete her bucket list before she dies from the illness.
in the book, near the end, all her family are around her when she dies- her mother, her father, and her brother- it was so sweet

but.. I don't have those people



I want to be like tessa in the book and die with my family round me, or at least people that meant something to me, but since I don't have that, I'm honestly not sure what I prefer to do

do I prefer to just die alone or die with people around me I've never even met?

thought of the day I guess...

We all die alone. I Loved my mom and we wanted to be there when she passed but after several false alarms.. my brother and family went home. And, she passed.. alone.

There is simply no guarantee you will be with your family or, if you are, you will even have awareness of them, due to drugs or illness. My mother was on morphene and we didn't know if she even had any awareness of anything.

What if your demise happens in a way where people can't be there, car accident, overdose, earthquake?

Even those with the most loving friends and family will not necessarily end their lives surrounded in the hollywood family end situation.

Make peace with dying alone and be happily surprised if you don't.