The tears have started and won't stop..

I woke up feeling extremely unwell this morning because it turns out I've got a urine infection. No big deal I know, these happen all the time it's not a big deal. But my god has it knocked me. I felt totally anxious and tired, and although I got to see the doctor I started crying and I've not been able to stop.

The only thing that's keeping me here is my daughter, but I feel terrible that I'm not being the mum I should be. I know I'm not doing anything wrong, she's clean, well fed and adored and rarely wants for anything, but I'm just putting so much pressure on myself and don't know how to stop. I love my little girl so much and I just want to be happy but I don't know how. I've not stopped crying all day and there's still no sign on it stopping. I feel so helpless.

(((((Evaluna))))) I hope you feel better soon

I hate urine infections, they are so painful and inconvenient. I hope you're taking some medication that works.

I feel for your pain. Sometimes it can help to breathe slowly and bring your attention to something, like a plant or something, that doesn't trigger sad feelings in you. Keep breathing slowly and regularly and keep focussing. Sometimes it works and can lift you slowly out of that sad place.

I hope, too, that you give yourself credit for the tremendous internal strength and integrity you must have to keep caring for your little girl the way you are, while enduring such horrible pain yourself.

Many thoughts and hugs...

It sounds like you could use some self care - maybe a warm bath, heating pad, cup of tea. I hope you feel better soon.

You're a wonderful mother. ((((evaluna))))

I hope you feel better soon.