[Fuzzybear]

I thought I wrote something of some value on another forum the other day...

I realise I may be making an “assumption” - to me, silence feels cold, unfriendly, harsh.. maybe it isn’t about that, but about something else, not about me...

I doubt if many in this Depression forum would feel supported if nobody replied... it isn’t supportive... especially if our diagnosis and / or our experiences are questioned (thinly veiled or otherwise) because we aren’t exactly the same .. we aren’t how we, apparently, “should” be..according to another person.. an “expert” (?)

I was never as I “should” be as a cub. According to the “experts” - and that pain is deep. I can’t just move on.. especially when my pain is triggered.

Maybe I am not “avoidant” and have “no right” to post there. I doubt if I will bother anyway... posting isn’t easy for me. I don’t like putting myself out there and receiving a zero, or judgment.

If this post is against the guidelines please remove it.

But when I post I try to post something that may be of value to others.. of course maybe it isn’t.. and I “should” .. oh whatever.

This post isn’t meant to be hurtful to anyone.

The Silence tells me .. the Judgment is that I am not welcome there... oh how I hate being told I’m of “no value” and deserve no support..

I was diagnosed as “avoidant” . (By a “senior clinician” irl) Maybe this was wrong. I don’t know...But I try to support others. Maybe I “fail”

The silence, the judgment... “supports” my core pain... “no value”

And yet I know this is a lie..

I’m tired of waking up every day with crushing depression and anxiety.

I’m tired of, apparently, not being worth caring about by people who don’t like fuzzy bears.

I’m tired of walking on eggshells to avoid being reprimanded or worse.

I think I’ll only interact with those on as is.. with those (if any) who care about fuzzy bear....

I do not know why this world enjoys hurting fuzzy bear

(Not about anyone on pc)

[MickeyCheeky]

((((Fuzzybear)))) I don't know if it can help, but we certainly care about you here.

[fallaximago]

I care about you, even though I don't know you personally, and I like bears! You sound like a very sensitive and caring person, in my opinion you deserve the same treatment

(((((Fuzzy))))) you are wonderful, the professionals and whoever else is saying bad stuff about you are talking out of their backsides

Every time they say something bad about you it comes out as a giant fart noise

[Thirty shades]

Much love Fuzzy to you and your inner bear cub.

You are both worthy....

[Fuzzybear]

Thanks so much everyone

We love our Fuzzybear

[Fuzzybear]

whisper

[Rohag]

Originally Posted by Fuzzybear

I was diagnosed...By a “senior clinician”

Feel free to ignore these questions.

How long did it take the clinician, after how many sessions, to arrive at the diagnosis?

Did the clinician explain to you how they arrived at the diagnosis and what the diagnosis means?

As far as you can tell, was this a genuine diagnosis, or was it a "administrative/bureaucratic" diagnosis that merely served the need to justify your continued "treatment"?

((((((( Fuzzybear )))))))

[little turtle]

dear fuzzy on the AS IS bus...hugs

(((((little turtle))))) you deserve hugs and love and care as well

[Fuzzybear]

((((((((( everyone )))))))))