I hate this

Possible trigger:

both three and my brain keep coming up with "if you wasn't around any more whispershadow you'd be with Ebony again and nobody at all would miss you"

For the record, I am not going to do anything to join Ebony again,

I need to fight through this for Willow's sake,

Possible trigger:

if I wasn't around any more then Tigger would get rehomed quick but Willow would never get a new home and would live the rest of her life locked in a cage before going on a one way trip to the vet

I realise three is talking out of it's backside again and I am in no danger from myself, I'm just letting it out

Depression is a great big turd

And cause there's three sobs, here's another one to make three sod off

[Fuzzybear]

(((((((( whispershadow ))))))))

Are those thoughts and

Possible trigger:

self harming to deal with the guilt of failing Ebony

"normal"? The professionals can take their "normal" and put it back where it came from, I dont' want "normal emotions" over losing Ebony if this is their "normal"

[MickeyCheeky]

((((whispershadow)))) I'm so sorry you're struggling. Please, stay safe... think of your pets, as well.

[Fuzzybear]

The professionals say this is “normal” ? It sounds to me that this is an attempt by the “professionals” to refuse help?

Originally Posted by Fuzzybear

The professionals say this is “normal” ? It sounds to me that this is an attempt by the “professionals” to refuse help?

Yep same as last time when I had that really bad breakdown

Possible trigger:

that meant I had sui plans made and one sui attempt years ago

The "professionals" there didn't give a crap either, they was the ones who was like "go home your a time waster" when I asked for help

And in the letters they wrote about me they put the word "breakdown" between these things "" cause it was the word I used and they knew I wasn't safe but they still sent me home and told tales on me to my useless counsellor who cared more about his paycheque than about anything else

[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by whispershadow

Yep same as last time when I had that really bad breakdown

Possible trigger:

that meant I had sui plans made and one sui attempt years ago

The "professionals" there didn't give a crap either, they was the ones who was like "go home your a time waster" when I asked for help

And in the letters they wrote about me they put the word "breakdown" between these things "" cause it was the word I used and they knew I wasn't safe but they still sent me home and told tales on me to my useless counsellor who cared more about his paycheque than about anything else

It’s very sad and scary how awful so many of these “professionals” are

I used to think I was particularly unlucky and had particularly “bad” therapy.. it was appalling... but so many of them don’t care. It’s scary scary bad.

And some people think I’m “a bad person” for speaking the truth. The world is insane

I do honestly promise I'll stay safe though, I will not put Willow at risk of going back into rescue, the only place Willow is going is to the vet when she needs to go

Same with Tigger

Are my emotions really "normal" though?

three can sod off

[Fuzzybear]

I guess the question is what is “normal”

People with MI, MH distress deserve help/support.. but the system is unwilling or unable to “cope” with what it is supposed to ..... ugh.

And then they blame us

Or are so vile we stay away...

I’m glad you’re staying safe

Back in 2012 I would of been safer as IP but they wouldn't try anything to help me even when I was at my worst, they just told me go home you are wasting our time

I am so sorry, Whisper.

I had a really bad nightmare last night

The nazis came after me and my online friends and took us all away and split us up and idk what they did to my online friends cause I woke up as I was trying to get away from them to get to Laurie someone please tell me what they did to my online friends

Originally Posted by whispershadow

I had a really bad nightmare last night

The nazis came after me and my online friends and took us all away and split us up and idk what they did to my online friends cause I woke up as I was trying to get away from them to get to Laurie someone please tell me what they did to my online friends

Whisper, it was just a dream! No need to panic. Also if I was there, I'd have done something scientific and turned the tables.

Originally Posted by TheLonelyChemist

Whisper, it was just a dream! No need to panic. Also if I was there, I'd have done something scientific and turned the tables.

What did they do to my online friends though? sorry I'm flipping my lid about it

[mountainstream]

[downandlonely]

Whisper, I am here, and I am just fine.

[mountainstream]

Originally Posted by whispershadow

What did they do to my online friends though? sorry I'm flipping my lid about it

I’m ok whisper.

[mountainstream]

Big hugs. ((((Whisper))))

[MickeyCheeky]

((((whispershadow)))) Don't worry. You're safe here.

[Fuzzybear]

(((((((( whisper )))))))))

Originally Posted by whispershadow

What did they do to my online friends though? sorry I'm flipping my lid about it

Whisper... I thought about you last night, and I had trouble sleeping. I was awake for an hour or so. I googled the information on how to do research on mental health, that which specialization I should do, how should I prepare for it, and if the institution of my dreams offers drug discovery course. I found nothing except for the fact that I should specialize in biology and learn the rest of steps when I go for PG and doctoral degree there.

I am so sorry you're going through this... You did not use to be like this. I wish you a better life. If there was a drug that could make you less depressed, if there was something I could do, not only for us both for the whole mankind.... if only there was a way.