[haunted]

Well it was back to work today after a week off due to severe anxiety attacks coupled with the worst depression I've had in a long time. It was nice to just stop for a few days and regroup.

So I went in and of course everyone wanted to now how I was, what was wrong. I lied and said I had a really bad cold. I did have a cold but it wasn't that bad. I just can't bring myself to tell casual co workers that I suffer from depression and anxiety. I don't want to be labeled. That's what people that don't understand do. I hate that. And I am ashamed as I feel I should be stonger than I am. I should not let this get the best of me.

Right away I was hit with "What are you bringing to the office xmas party? I'm bringing this and she's bringing that...". UUUUGGGGHHHHH! Why must everyone else be so happy????? I wanted to tell them I'll bring the Xanax and you can bring the cookies and we'll have ourselves a heck of a party by golly Just picturing their reaction brought a smile and I felt that the day would be o.k. And it was.

[nowheretorun]

[Perna]

So, what are you bringing to the office Christmas party? :-)

It's hard to get back in the swing of things when one has been out even without having a problem about which one doesn't wish to share. But I'd feel like I was playing "Who Wants to Be a Millionaire" and had used up one of my crucial lifelines with the "cold" excuse? Can't use that one again for 6 months or so? I would say something like "personal business I had to take care of" and then people are "afraid" to pry :-) Or even, "personal medical problems" and I think as long as you put the "personal" in there, few are going to be brave enough to question further. If they do, just go off on them LOL.

[haunted]

I dunno......maybe I'll make the brownies everyone seems to love so much and if I'm feeling jolly I might put some of those little sugar santas on them.....

I know what you mean about using a cold for an excuse. I thought about that later on too. oh well one lifeline gone hahaha.

[Perna]

LOL with the lifeline.

Why does everyone like the brownies, because of what you put in them? :-) Isn't that old school?

The more you go back to work the easier it will get I think. One gets use to routines like children do; we're just grown up children.

Hope you get "comfortable" and figure out a good way to "function".