[Kiwi2222]

Don't know what to do. Truth is I just don't no and have no options if could move country's I would but no idea where. But reality is I'm trapped by life money family and extreme anxiety with depression been at rock bottom for years and there's no climbing back up.

[Skeezyks]

I wish I had some useful suggestions for you. I'm kind-of in a similar boat. I suppose I do have options... if I wanted to drop the atomic bomb of solutions. I don't. I'm not sure it would even end up solving anything really. There's probably no way to know for sure without doing it. And I'm not going to. I recall telling a therapist I once talked to that I knew what my options were. I just didn't like any of them.

I'm 70 years old now. It's way-y-y too late to be trying to rescue myself. So I just keep putting one foot in front of the other, as the saying goes, day-in & day-out. The good thing is that, because I'm as old as I am now, I don't have to "perform" anymore... hold down a job, have a social life, etc. As long as I haul myself out of bed each morning, take my shower, & do the few household chores that need to be done, that's about all that's necessary. It's also about all I'm up to. Sometimes I think the best one can perhaps do is to strive to accept things just the way they are. At least that's where I'm at...

[Mopey]

I love how you tell things the way they are, Skeezyx. And please don’t go anywhere. We all need you. 🌹

[mote.of.soul]

Where there's a will there's a way, friend - where there's a will there's a way.

Hang in there Kiwi2222, things change and that may very well be true for your depression as well. It may improve in time. Keep striving.

[Kiwi2222]

Yeah I've been waiting and been told the same old stuff it will get better it might get better. 15 odd years with a few good patches last 5 wanting to die everyday watching my already dead life disappear and know it's not coming back. 40ish now got nothing. Ex turning spiteful messing with my Dead Dad memory for the rest of my life tipped me over to a new level and I'm keep going further down and felt like I hit rock bottom years ago. And I'm not spending what ever left alone like this. I have a dog dam it who I love but deserves better than me and can't let him stave but once he's gone

[mote.of.soul]

Yeah, sounds pretty bad. Maybe you'd start to feel better if you chopped your ex out of your life? He sounds toxic, if you don't mind me saying so.

[Kiwi2222]

Hi.
We were engaged together for 9 years and she is toxic and not in my life no one is I removed myself from it all as she wriggled her way to take my friends of 20 years she knew them for 3 years she was English came back with me. And turn out best mates that I was and have been through so much didn't visit once during breakup which was peaceful until she got spiteful. My whole life is dead and friends weren't friends after all.

[Fuzzybear]