[ZweinZa]

I don't know what to say clearly. I am feeling such a failure.

I was graduated a year ago with great GPA (cum laude) from reputable university in my country, I have several organization experiences, volunteerism, assistant lecturer experiences, internship, national competition, and even international conference. I get a lot of rejection from many companies, big and small companies, private and government companies. Many of my friends, that had lower GPA, less organization, competition, academic experiences, get a job easily (some of them because of their parent).

My mother is sick right now, as a CKD patient that should get haemodialysis twice a week which I should take my mom to hospital twice a week. I am feeling such a failure because all of my hardwork since in school and university are useless. My friend already boost up their career after their graduation which is the same day with me. But, I am just a useless, failure person.

Another family patient in hospital (which I take my mom into) are calling me a lazy jobless because I don't have work. I always try my best in every recruitment process but the companies always reject me. I am counting there are more than 100 companies that reject me. I am feeling stressful and don't have a feeling to do anything.

I always wanted to suicide. I want to end myself at the end of March 2019 if I still unemployed. I think myself as a failure and can't ever get any job if after 1 year graduation still jobless.

I wish you guys live in a great way, and one thing that I learn, you don't have to be great in school or university to get a job. It's useless.

[mikimostar]

Originally Posted by ZweinZa

I don't know what to say clearly. I am feeling such a failure.

I was graduated a year ago with great GPA (cum laude) from reputable university in my country, I have several organization experiences, volunteerism, assistant lecturer experiences, internship, national competition, and even international conference. I get a lot of rejection from many companies, big and small companies, private and government companies. Many of my friends, that had lower GPA, less organization, competition, academic experiences, get a job easily (some of them because of their parent).

My mother is sick right now, as a CKD patient that should get haemodialysis twice a week which I should take my mom to hospital twice a week. I am feeling such a failure because all of my hardwork since in school and university are useless. My friend already boost up their career after their graduation which is the same day with me. But, I am just a useless, failure person.

Another family patient in hospital (which I take my mom into) are calling me a lazy jobless because I don't have work. I always try my best in every recruitment process but the companies always reject me. I am counting there are more than 100 companies that reject me. I am feeling stressful and don't have a feeling to do anything.

I always wanted to suicide. I want to end myself at the end of March 2019 if I still unemployed. I think myself as a failure and can't ever get any job if after 1 year graduation still jobless.

I wish you guys live in a great way, and one thing that I learn, you don't have to be great in school or university to get a job. It's useless.

I kind of get you. I am bad with job interviews too. If I do not have insider with good connections or on high position I can't get a job.

It looks like you do not know to sell yourself and provide good advertisement. Try to work on that rather than go desperate.

Please, try to ignore those negative comments. You are not a failure by any means. You are just looking for your way on top, to be king.

[luvyrself]

It is very difficult to deal with caretaking a sick family member without trying to reach another goal at the same time. If the critical family member would take your parent to dialysis, you could concentrate on job hunting. I suppose this isn’t possible.
I am older and retired, tho sometimes I look for a job to have more to do than to find doctors for my husband. It is very difficult because you have to focus completely to get a job. If possible, get someone to help you with your family member.
Do you have a definite job you would like to get?You should probably go for an informational interview, getting information from someone experienced about how to get into that field. The person you talk to could be encouraged to be your mentor. You could offer to take them to lunch throughout your job search.
I don’t know if its international, but in the States it is very important to put your information on Linked In, a website for networking for jobs. Most professional people in the US have their information on Linked In. Or you could have your own website with all your information. This would also show your technical skills.
One thing that young people have difficulty with is being assertive enough. You know you are good, be assertive. Promote yourself. Good luck!

[sarahsweets]

Originally Posted by ZweinZa

I don't know what to say clearly. I am feeling such a failure.

I was graduated a year ago with great GPA (cum laude) from reputable university in my country, I have several organization experiences, volunteerism, assistant lecturer experiences, internship, national competition, and even international conference. I get a lot of rejection from many companies, big and small companies, private and government companies. Many of my friends, that had lower GPA, less organization, competition, academic experiences, get a job easily (some of them because of their parent).

Are these friends in the same field as you?

My mother is sick right now, as a CKD patient that should get haemodialysis twice a week which I should take my mom to hospital twice a week. I am feeling such a failure because all of my hardwork since in school and university are useless. My friend already boost up their career after their graduation which is the same day with me. But, I am just a useless, failure person.

I refuse to believe that. What is your friend involved with? Have you tried asking for tips or if they are hiring where the friend works?

Another family patient in hospital (which I take my mom into) are calling me a lazy jobless because I don't have work.

Is this a family member? Or an unrelated patients' family?

I always try my best in every recruitment process but the companies always reject me. I am counting there are more than 100 companies that reject me. I am feeling stressful and don't have a feeling to do anything.

Do they have temp agencies in your company? What about the place that you interned at? Are they hiring?

[Skeezyks]

Hello ZweinZa: Thank you for sharing your concern here on PC. I noticed this is your first post. So... welcome to Psych Central.

I'm sorry you are having such a difficult time finding a job. From what you wrote, it sounds to me as though there may be something you're doing (or not doing)... the way you're presenting yourself in interview situations... that is causing you to continue to be rejected by employers. Effective job interviewing is a skill you can learn. I see you list yourself as living in Indonesia. And I don't know what kinds of services are available to you there. But if there is somewhere you could take a job seeking skills training program, that might help you to figure out what's going wrong & how to correct it. There is a company that publishes books & other material on effective job seeking techniques, as well as other work-related subjects. It's called JIST Publishing. Here's a link to their website:

Home | JIST Career Solutions

You mentioned suicide. If you're struggling with suicidal thoughts, it's important to reach out in real life for help. You may feel as though ending your life is the only choice left you. But it's not. Sometimes though, when things aren't going well, it can feel that way. Talking things through with someone can help. Here are links to 3 articles, from Psych Central's archives, that (hopefully) may provide you with some perspective regarding your circumstances. The first 2 articles are by our host Dr. John Grohol, Psy.D.:

Suicidal? Don't Throw Away Your Shot

Suicidal? What Van Gogh's Life Can Teach You

How to Survive Suicidal Thoughts

I hope you find PC to be of benefit.

P.S. Toward the end of your post you wrote that you always wanted to suicide. If thoughts of ending your life are something you've been struggling with for a long time, perhaps what's going on here is that you've been fighting depression for a long time & your depression is coming across in your job interviews. And if that's the case, then perhaps seeing a mental health professional would also be a good idea? Just another thought...

I am in a similar situation. All my peers in my field have found jobs except me. I think for me it's because of lack of confidence and anxiety, which are reflected on how I write my resume and cover letter, and on how I do on phone interviews. It's been more than 2 years for me. It's a downward spiral. I know the social pressure and judgment all too well. I have suffered from that. I haven't been able to go anywhere without being intruded by others on why I cannot find a job which makes you feel like a failure!! You cannot do anything without a job. I wish I had an advice for you, but I don't. Hopefully things will get better.