Stop it!!!

Anytime im left alone with myself and my thoughts, even just for a few minutes, my mind keeps repeating to itself: "STOP IT!". i dont know why or what should stop. maybe its my own mind telling itself to stop thinking and feeling whats going on inwardly at the moment. it mostly happens when i get home (MY NEW home) and i see the evidence of my failure. im alone, so alone. and i feel like a tornado is twisting in my mind, i feel like im going crazy so, i guess the tornado should stop… but how? and why? i deserve to suffer and even going crazy. i want this life to end and i want to end it. im so sick and tired of myself. whatever i do, nothing works, i keep feeling the same day after day, year after year. nothing changes. im still and always wanting and needing death. thats the truth...

I'm so sorry you're hurting so much, sinking Please don't give up. I don't know what may cause that thought, but perhaps it's your own mind telling you that you need to be kinder to yourself, like you've said. If that's true, then I completely agree! You're a wonderful person and I'm so sorry you can't see that. Please take good care of yourself. You deserve to have a wonderful life, just like you are. I'm so sorry you're going through all of this. How are things going with your therapist? Is he/she helping you? You deserve to get help and to feel good. You deserve to live a good life just like everyone else. Be kind to yourself, sinking. You deserve it. You know we all care about you here. You deserve kindness and love. I hope you'll be able to see yourself as the wonderful person that you truly are. We all care about you here. We all love you here. Feel free to vent here as much as you need and want. You know we won't judge you. We won't abandon you. I promise that. Stay strong, sinking. Stay safe and take care of yourself. You're a wonderful person. You're awesome! You're strong! You're a warrior! I'm so sorry, I know it's hard. Please don't give up. I hope things will get better soon for you. Is there anyting we can do to help you? Please let us know. Remember that we're here for you if you need it. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help you. Wish you good luck! Let us know how it goes. I'm so sorry you have to deal with this