[cryingontheinside]

Im sorry im here all the time being negative but things are still bad for me .
Im so depressed I barely function , i barely take care of myself . i can't live like this . some days i strongly feel like taking my own life .
How can things get better when their this bad ?
Where do i find the strength to fight this?
How do i find motivation and energy ?

Im so lost . im so alone . i want to cry so badly but tears don't come out .

Im ashamed to be me , someone who is nothing with no purpose in life

Things have been really bad for 5 years with no improvement . is it too late for me ?

[Calla lily12]

I'm so sorry you feel like this. I can relate. Now that my children are grown and my (abusive) parents have died, I no longer work...I feel like I have no purpose.
I feel like a failure. I cannot cry either. Life hurts.
Please don't apologize for saying how you feel. I wonder how things will get better also. Will they?
I wish there was some way I could help you , but all I have is empathy.

[cryingontheinside]

Originally Posted by Calla lily12

I'm so sorry you feel like this. I can relate. Now that my children are grown and my (abusive) parents have died, I no longer work...I feel like I have no purpose.

I feel like a failure. I cannot cry either. Life hurts.

Please don't apologize for saying how you feel. I wonder how things will get better also. Will they?

I wish there was some way I could help you , but all I have is empathy.

Im so sorry you are going through this too . i don't work either . i have agoraphobia as well as other mental health problems . i barely leave my home . i live alone and i hardly ever see anyone . i have so little support .
Tell me more about you . what are you going through ? You don't deserve this either .
Hugs

[Mopey]

There is always hope, Crying.

Are you on medication? With a therapist?

And also I am wondering, have you been able to talk with any of your children lately?

[Calla lily12]

Originally Posted by cryingontheinside

Im so sorry you are going through this too . i don't work either . i have agoraphobia as well as other mental health problems . i barely leave my home . i live alone and i hardly ever see anyone . i have so little support .
Tell me more about you . what are you going through ? You don't deserve this either .
Hugs

You don't deserve this either. Though I have my husband, I feel alone. I rarely leave the house. I don't see the point of it. I want friends but it's too much effort to keep them. That sounds awful but, it's true. Do you have a therapist? Anyone to talk to?
It seems like after my parents death, and knowing I never mattered to them, my depression worsened. I'm totally shut out by my brother. He was so cruel to my family while my parents were dying, I cut off contact. I wish my attitude was better and I could enjoy anything at all.
I want to reach out to you and just sit beside you to give you company. I really do understand.

[cryingontheinside]

Originally Posted by Mopey

There is always hope, Crying.


Are you on medication? With a therapist?


And also I am wondering, have you been able to talk with any of your children lately?

Yes I'm on medication but i don't feel it helps me . im trying to get therapy soon
.im seeing my kids soon. I have to put on a brave face for them but its hard .
Also my physical health is getting bad . I'm neglecting myself too much . i think i have copd now which is like a lung disease and im only 37 .

[cryingontheinside]

Originally Posted by Calla lily12

You don't deserve this either. Though I have my husband, I feel alone. I rarely leave the house. I don't see the point of it. I want friends but it's too much effort to keep them. That sounds awful but, it's true. Do you have a therapist? Anyone to talk to?

It seems like after my parents death, and knowing I never mattered to them, my depression worsened. I'm totally shut out by my brother. He was so cruel to my family while my parents were dying, I cut off contact. I wish my attitude was better and I could enjoy anything at all.

I want to reach out to you and just sit beside you to give you company. I really do understand.

I wish i could sit beside you also and give you company .
Im trying to get therapy .
Im glad you have your husband but i understand you need more in your life .
I hope things get better for us all

[Mopey]

Crying, you have a lot of difficulties to face. It isn't too surprising you're having a hard time keeping on. My mother had COPD so I can relate to how hard just that one thing is. Much love and many hugs going to you (((((((Crying)))))). :group hug"

[Thirty shades]

I am sorry you cannot cry and experience the relief it brings.

I can empathise totally.

Much love to you

[Fuzzybear]

Hugs to you

[mountainstream]

[mountainstream]

How are you now sweetheart? I know you’ve had it very rough for a long time. I wish you peace, hope, healing and light. We all love you here.

[cryingontheinside]

Originally Posted by mountainstream

How are you now sweetheart? I know you’ve had it very rough for a long time. I wish you peace, hope, healing and light. We all love you here.

Thanks for asking about me . I'm still struggling with depression and motivation and leaving my home . sometimes having suicidal thoughts . how is everything with you ?

[Fuzzybear]

Hi cryingontheinside!

I was thinking of you also, I’m sorry you’re still struggling. Is there one positive thing about yourself you can think of and hold onto, or one thing you find beautiful? Beautiful music, a flower?

Peace and hope to you dear person

Originally Posted by cryingontheinside

Thanks for asking about me . I'm still struggling with depression and motivation and leaving my home . sometimes having suicidal thoughts . how is everything with you ?

I am so sorry. I can talk with you if it makes you feel better.

[mountainstream]

Originally Posted by cryingontheinside

Thanks for asking about me . I'm still struggling with depression and motivation and leaving my home . sometimes having suicidal thoughts . how is everything with you ?

I’m still struggling too with depression and suicidal thoughts. We are here for you.

[cryingontheinside]

Thank you all of you . you are so thoughtful and kind despite your own struggles . any of you are welcome to send me a private message any time . maybe we can support each other