[lostinwilderness]

Have you ever read a post and felt..... that is excactly how I'm feeling or used to feel? In the last few days it seems like every time I decide to go through some I find at least one in every 10 or so posts that describe the way I feel now or used to, so perfectly that its unreal. Some actually resemble a few of my diary entries; same words even.

Is it just me? Or something inside making the words jump out, subtly prompting me to seek help, to maybe start seeing a therapist again?

Because I'm still scared and even though I empathise (albeit silently and to myself mostly)... I'm scared to reply, to say that I understand,... I can't help but think... even though I know that if it was me I would welcome it, be grateful to each person who replies...

I'm too scared to reach out.... to step out of the house, even if it is to see a doctor when i'm ill or to see my therapist when I'm too down. That's how I ended up in a hospital gone May after procrastinating for over an year about the pain I felt on the rare ocassions that I had to go outside and at a snail pace until I could'nt get around the house itself without being in a constant state of pain. I was advised to go for walks and get some exercise, even had to go for physiotherapy for about a month... but i balked out of it after one week; four before I stopped going out for walks. Here I am the same old and I just can't bring myself to care at all.
I'm just....... living in an almost constant state of apathy with ocassional bursts of emotion and I hate it.

I'm sorry I got a little off topic. Anyway I was wondering if many of you feel the same sense of dejavu so to speak...

[nowheretorun]

Hi Lost!

i can identify with most of all you've said..

havent cooped myself up for days at a time like that, like some others have... work always kept me out and around.. in hindsight, that was a good thing, though painful to bear at times...

had to keep reaching out... birthdays, holidays, funerals... and the distances i felt from others kept me trying...

if you feel disconnected and dissociated, definately, seek therapy...

therapy can come in a variety of forms, so explore...

[starfishblue]

Yes, definitely have felt dejavue reading others posts. I find comfort in the similarities. It helps me realize I am not alone in my depression and there are others who share my experiences.

Reply when you are ready. I have received replies that just say "me too" . It's nice to know someone else understands. Sometimes "me too" is what helps the most.

[kebsfroggy]

It's not surprising that you're having those deja vu feelings. The reason most of us are here is to bring fact to our belief that we are no alone.

Don't be afraid here. Most on board will not bite your head off. As a frog of little brain my diet consists mainly of flies and mosquitos. I like an occasional crunchy bug for a snack.

Remember we all seeking the same things understanding, comfort and support. As humans, our interpretations of those words can lead to some lively discussions.

Welcome and please join in. Take off you hat and coat and rest for awhile. We are glad you are here.

[Doh2007]

You just gave comfort to a lot of people who needed to hear what you just said. Thanks for sharing and thanks for being here.

[turquoisesea]

*agrees with all the previous posts... they state it very well