In the pit again.

Well, here I am in the pit again for about the zillionth time. Tired of digging my way out. I know I'm not alone and just wish someone would tell me an easy way. I don't have a pdoc. I'm from Mississippi and it's hard to find one here. The MHC doesn't take my insurance so it's $150 a pop no matter who I talk to or what their credentials are. The last time I went I saw a PNP who obviously had not read my chart b/c he started talking about how wonderful it was to be able to help my MIL when she is one of my biggest "downers/stressors" or whatever you want to call them. I felt wounded and raw after that. Saw no need to go back. Spill my guts and they don't care enough to read what I've said? Nah. Too much $$ for that. Just too tired. I pray and believe it will be better one day. Take 20 mg. Lexapro a day and 1 mg. Lorazepam twice a day. On hormones for menopause and diabetic medication. DX: Major Depression Recurrent, Anxiety/Panic d/o, PTSD.

I can't tell you an easy way, yakmom, unfortunately! I WILL tell you that I'm here for you though and that I'll listen to what you have to say! I CARE ABOUT YOU! THAT'S A PROMISE! I'm sure many other people care as well! We're here to help and support each other after all! I'm so sorry that you're having an hard time finding GOOD Pdocs and therapists! They certainly aren't easy to come by! Please be kind to yourself, ok? I hope things will get better soon for you one way or another! Keep fighting, keep looking for a solution! Keep trying! YOU CAN DO THIS! YOU'VE GOT THIS! YOU'RE A STRONG, WONDERFUL PERSON! YOU'RE A STRONG, WONDERFUL WARRIOR! I PROMISE YOU ALL OF THAT BECAUSE IT IS TRUE! PLEASE REMEMBER ALL OF THAT AS MUCH AS YOU POSSIBLY CAN BECAUSE IT IS TRUE! Sending many kind, safe, sweet, warm and WONDERFUL HUGS TO YOU, YAKMOM, JUST LIKE YOU ARE! BELIEVE IT BECAUSE IT IS TRUE AND I'M SURE YOU KNOW IT AS WELL EVEN IF IT'S DEEP DOWN INSIDE YOU!

((((Hugs))))

Thank you so much for your kind words. Blessings!