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Hey guys. Havent posted on this board but i have on the others. Just starting to spiral down. Tomorrow I leave my moms and go home. (came to visit for almost two weeks now) shes "adopted" me and I know i have told you guys about her. My real parents died......TG! They never treated me well. My new mom is awesome! But i keep thinking about having to go home and have this overwhelming sense of dread. I am not working, hubs is only working part time, were barely making it. and i mean barely. No heat on. just space heaters. were in chicago so its kinda cold this time. Bills piling up and the fear of, well "i HAVE to deal" now is spiling on top of me. I dont want to go home, where i am depressed everyday, and have to "work at it" to be happy.
Im just happy here. and its starting to go down. again.....im grateful for the second chance at somebody who actually loves me. which not many get. But fearful of going back home to "deal with life"......its one of those days/weeks where i dont want to think. KNow what i mean? Thanks for letting me ramble. You all have a good nite Colleen
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Hi C... you just hang in there.. keep working out the details to the thoughts in your mind... it takes time for it to unravel... keep thinking good thoughts.. it will guide you the best directions...
take it easy on yourself.. this time of year is high stress for many and in some cases, the worst shows... let it slide by, rise aboove the best you can.. when time makes room for it, reflect and choose what you want to keep, discard the rest... keep playing for a better hand.. life is like a card game at times ... best to you... |
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(((((((Colleen))))))))))
Hope things get better for you...like a darned rollercoaster sometimes, I'm sure you will get through this...... Love Jin xxxxx |
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Thanks for the reply. Today i go home.....
not looking forward to it. Amost SI yesterday but i didnt. Workin on it......still Colleen
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yeah, i know i will. it is just hard. and being close to the holidays makes it even harder.
thanks jinny.....you are amazing...and you help more than you know. Colleen
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