I feel awful. I feel sad and depressed and alone. I don’t pity myself. If only a day could go by when my eyes don’t open. I told a dying man that he should fear death and not life. Regret and insensitivity. Not to mention my total disregard for his privacy, my efforts were not productive. I couldn’t know how he feels. Maybe I am jealous of his attention. Maybe he does not like all that attention. Yesterday, I was fatigued and I think am loosing my mind. I can’t see things clearly. Everything is a blur. I feel like a robot. My limbs do not feel attached anymore. I loose track of time. Nevermore than a few minutes. One minute I am here and the next, -gone. It is so easy to forget to remember. But I wish I could remember to forget.

I hope tomorrow is better for you.

I am sorry today didn't really go how you wanted it

[MickeyCheeky]

Please don't be hard on yourself, @AB2371! Anyone can make some mistakes. It's clear that you're struggling A LOT right now. Are you seeing any doctor or therapists right now? Taking any Meds? I feel like that could REALLY help you if you're not doing it already. Please be kind to yourself and take time to take truly great care of yourself. You deserve it. You're not a bad person. You're just someone who's struggling right now. Just take some time to take care of yourself and to do something you like. Rading, cooking, watching movies or TV shows, going out for a walk... ANYTHING that can help. Feel free to PM m ANYTIME as well if you're feeling lonely and need someone to talk to. I'll listen without judging. THAT'S A PROMISE! I'm sure plenty of others will gladly help you as well. Sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH You, @AB2371, Your Family, Your Friends and ALL Of Your Loved Ones! Please keep fighting and keep rocking as much as you possibly can like you're already wonderfully doing all and entirely by yourself! PLEASE DO KEEP FIGHTING AND PLEASE DO KEEP ROCKING!

[Fuzzybear]

I hope tomorrow is better for you

[Skeezyks]

I hope that, in some way, you will be able to find deep peace in your life.

Thank you guys for your support. Maybe I am exaggerating, but it feels good to let go of some of these thoughts. I see quite clearly most of the time, but sometimes it all seems like a blur. Certainly I cannot predict the future but I should probably learn from my mistakes more often, rather than dropping the issue all the time. Working on that. Still hoping for a better tomorrow. Thanks again for all your support.