[Anxietysuxs]

I find birthdays hard? In my teen years I enjoyed them....I think because I had more friends then and people would come celebrate with me and have sleepovers and such.

Now I'm older and I feel like since....23 (now turning 27 this week) I just kinda have a hard time. Friends stop really wanting to come out and celebrate. I'll recall my 23rd birthday were I asked several friends to do something (even to just go out and get one drink) and no one said yes. I went out to a bar on my own and was heavily depressed. I probably would have tried doing something stupid that night till my roommate at the time finally came to join me (after posting to social media about how sad I was no one joined me and yes I had asked her).

I feel weird on birthdays because of depression during middle school and high school I genially believed I wouldn't be alive this long. So now that I am....what do I do?

Last year my birthday became even harder because my father died on halloween and my grandma died the day before my birthday. I dunno....birthdays are now just weird and hard and I kinda just wish I didn't have to acknowledgement them but I still do for my mom's sake.

[ughgres]

hey i hear you and im sending you hugs. i understand that birthdays can be hard. i personally never had a birthday surprise, except sometimes i get a cake or donuts and blow the candle from my friends. the last time was around early college.

this year i started to buy my own cake its really fun when you think about it because you get to pick what kind of cake you’ll be getting for yourself. i dont really celebrate it either, i treat it more like “oh i got older today” and leave it as it is. now it is probably just an excuse for me to buy a whole cake for myself (i share it to my friends and family though lol), so i dont feel really bad about spending extra money for the cake hahaha

maybe just spend time with your closest ones just to eat out, having a quality time together? it can be fun or even have a quality time for yourself, an extra self care day

regarding on how you feel about what do i do now, i feel the same every once in a while.. and it can be hard. just know that you are enough, and hopefully we can treat ourselves kindly i hope you have a great day!