[Randomrascal]

I feel like I'm nearing to collapse and spiraling fall down and sometimes I can't deal with it.

Here's the issue: I know I'll die alone and never having a girlfriend or getting married, having kids and a build a family. I'm just hideous and of course no girl will ever like me or fall in love with me. I mean, I'm 25 and I've never kissed anyone and it's clear I'll go through life without experiencing romantic love and it has been hurting a lot lately.

Literally. Every time I think about it, that I'll never be loved I feel a sharp pain in my chest. When I'm out on the street or taking the bus or the subway from work and I see girls around my age or young couples holding hands, kissing or huggin kills me and I have to make a huge effort not to cry there (sometimes I can't) and wait until I'm at home. I can't sleep well either. I don't remember the last time I had a good sleep.I spend nights tossing and turning and crying until I fall asleep.

I'm going crazy? I can't take it anymore. I don't know what to do. Being alive and conscious is a nightmare. I love when I'm sleep because the pain stops. I just want to go to sleep and never waking up. Life is not worth living. What's the poing? To suffer like this until I die from natural causes? To being alone and suffering?

I wish to believe that there's more in life than falling in love and sharing it with someone and being partners in life. But I don't feel it. What I feel is a huge void and I haven't found something to fill it. I know love can't be replaced and if you want to experience it, you're done. And it's such a tragedy that the only chance I got at being alive has to be spent alone and not experiencing something that 99% of the people will. Why I'm not normal? Why I had to be born like this?

I don't know how to keep going. I just can't. I'm scared and I can't believe how my life has become like this. I don't know how this is going to end or if is there a solution. It is possible to kill the desire to want a partner? To stop having those feelings? I don't know what to do.

[MrsA]

I'm sorry you are having such a hard time. It's not easy being alone. Though it helps to keep in mind that people in relationships are often miserable. And the people who are unhappy in a relationship tend to work hard to look like they are perfectly happy in public and on social media. It doesn't change the fact that you are alone when you wish you had someone.

I can't tell you not to feel depressed, but is it possible to find something else to give your life meaning like a pet or a hobby you really love? It's just my opinion, but I believe a person looks more attractive to others when they are a complete person by themselves. And there is a better chance for a healthy relationship if you figure out who you are on your own first and meet a potential partner as equals entering a relationship by choice.

And try not to worry about not being kissed by 25. Most people don't go around making out every day. Those who do it in public are probably insecure so they have to put on a show. I think PDA is actually quite rude because it's a form of social competition by flaunting a mate.

You don't need to measure your progress by comparing yourself with people around you. I'm sure you have qualities that others wish they had, just as you wish you have what they have. Finding the right person is more important than finding a mate fast. I hope I'm not coming off insensitive. I just think 25 is still very young and you have a lot of potential.