I am not particularly clever, I am no stunning beauty, I try to be a good person, I care and have a lot of love inside me .....

I dont always get love the way I want it back, but that is MY problem......

I have a wonderful family of my own.....I miss having a mum who cared and protected me....I miss her every day....I feel guilt for never contacting her but it has to be this way .....

I need hugs right now and I'm crying so I dont want to ask my son
He had an exam today and I dont want to upset him.....

I have been so happy all weekend ...... and just now, out of absolutely nowhere my heart dropped, I felt so very very sad... my daughter went away for another week maybe that's why, but I dont know.....just out of the blue....I had to just spill what was going on in my head.....bit ecclectic.....

Sometimes I just dont feel good enough ya know? For anyone or anything, this is not a pity party or whatever you call it ... I'm just saying it how it is .......

My meds have been upped and I thought they were begining to work, now I wonder whether I should be on them at all in case they are numbing me and stopping my therapy or something ....

that's my rant for the day

Jinny xxxxx

[nowheretorun]

(((( Jinnyann ))))) all the hugs you can imagine for you... just hang in there, day to day.... stay connected with T... she sounds helpful (the one you liked who had the interesting library)...

take breathes....

people all over the world care... it shows in these forums...

hoping you dont suffer another moment...

[Mayam]

Hi Jinnyann,

and hello to everyone. I'm new here but I'm glad I found this place.

Jinny, I may be on the other side of the earth for all we know but I do care. It may be tough to find people who genuinely care or it may seem that way at times. But we're out here. I can say that in truth because I'm one of them.

I understand how hard it can be to talk about what we're going through, even with people we have been close to for years. Honestly just today, since finding this site I've realized how much it can help just to have people to share how you feel with. You can feel free to share how you are feeling with me or I'd think most anyone who is a member here. If nothing else, we have that much now.

"Two are better than one, because they have a good reward for their toil. For if they fall, one will lift up his fellow; but woe to him who is alone when he falls and has not another to lift him up. Again, if two lie together, they are warm; but how can one be warm alone? And though a man might prevail against one who is alone, two will withstand him. A threefold cord is not quickly broken."

- Ecclisiastes 4: 9 - 12

[Cyran0]

Jinn, you give so much to the world, I wish there was a way I could convey how important you are. But that's the trick with life, isn't it? We're all just so bad at realizing how much of an impact we really have on others. It makes us feel alone and unworthy. But believe me Jinn, you're absolutely critical and people love you for it.

Losing you from the universe would be like losing an entire color. And while Kebs might tell you it isn't easy being green, it would be even harder to never be green at all.

So these feelings of sadness, they're just feelings and everyone here has them. Feel it, but don't let it convince you that you're anything other than awesome.

Cyran0

[jacq10]

(((((((((((((((((Jinny)))))))))))))))

Sending you a big hug.

You are not along in your thoughts...
Feel free to PM whenever

(((((((((((((((((jinnyann))))))))))))

[nowheretorun]

way to go day three (((( Jacq )))) (((( Jinnyann )))))

(((( all ))))

(((((((nowheretorun)))))

You are an invaluable friend to me, thankyou, hugs and love to you xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Kx

((((((mayam))))))

Welcome to PC and thankyou so muchfor your wise words .... you are right in everything you say, and I am here for you too ...

Peeps who know me here know I am on a rollercoaster ride right now and my moods are unpredictable to say the least lol ... trying to sort our meds and am going through therapy .... looking forward to speaking more with you

thanks again, Jinnyann/Kerry xxx

(((((((Cyran)))))

Another invaluable friend. You always make me feel better....and I have missed you by the way ..... I know you work hard and struggle, but you are always so giving to others ... for that I love you and I happen to think you are pretty awesome yourself...thankyou so so much for your kind words.....

Kerry xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

(((((hugs))))

(((((((((jacq)))))))

Thankyou sweetie, I know you too are struggling, sending you love and care, holding your hand in spirit too .... here for you always my good friend

Jinnyann xxxxxxx

(((((((((chocolatelover)))))))

Thankyou somuch for the hugs, well needed too .... I love reading your posts and your intelligence asounds me .... you are a wonderful, insightful and inspirational person, I wouldlove to meet you, hugs, Jinnyann xxxxx

[samm]

hi samm rays her paw to hit jinnann in the foot
big cat helped. stay on the med and stay with the
dr there will be days like that.
don't let your past be who you are let that love inside out
to see the world and people who love yu yes i know that the past plays a role in your life but we can bring our selves up again all over and be that person we want to be.
stay well hugs and kiss from across the pond.
samm my bonnie lays over the sea"""""""

[Kiya]

sorry, jinny, little late on this one.... ((((many hugs))))) are you feeling any better? Maybe it is "just that time" where everyone's going throgh it ya? just give it another day or so and see how things go.
kiya

(((((((samm))))))

((((((kiya))))))

thankyou hugs to you both...have therapy today

Jinny xxxxxx