Kind of want to die

I kind of want to die sometimes because I hate myself. I’ve been feeling like this on and off for almost a year I guess. I feel like I’m a burden and that I’m annoying to people. I don’t feel like I’m living, just existing and I don’t know what to do.

Hi Me2124603,

My English is not very good so I hope you can understand what I write to you.

Thank you so much for posting what you did today. It helps me so much by shattering the terrible isolation I feel in dealing with my own personal anguish and pain.

Your post has helped me and I think will help so many people who use these Forums to feel less alone with their own suffering.

That is not only a healing gift but a life saving gift.

Many people have told me that posts like yours have actually saved their lives when they were in the darkest darkness. So I am so grateful, so profoundly grateful to you.

There is an old saying that goes: "Whoever helps to save even a single life saves the entire world." I think you are such a person. I think you are very heroic.

I only wish I could help you as much as you have helped me today. I am so grateful to you!

Yao Wen

I am so sorry you're hurting SO BADLY, @Me2124603! Please be kinder to Yourself! I completely agree with EVERYTHING that the wise and wonderful @Yaowen has already wisely and wonderfully said better than I possibly ever could in my whole and entire Life wholefully and entirely in my Life! You matter and you deserve to Live. Are you seeing a Therapist or a Pdoc right now? Do you have a Support System in Real Life? Please do reach out to ANYONE You can and whom You trust because You deserve better and You deserve to feel good! You deserve the BEST! We are here for you if you need someone to talk to you and to listen to you. Feel free to PM me or any other members ANYTIME! YOU ARE THE GREATEST AND ALSO THE STRONGEST PERSON EVER! Sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH You, @Me2124603, Your Family, Your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK, MY DEAR, SWEET, KIND, AWESOME AND WONDERFUL FRIEND?!

Hello Me: Thank you for bringing your concern here to PC. I see this is your first post. Welcome to Psych Central. One additional forum, here on PC, that may be of interest to you would be the Coping with Emotions forum. Here's a link:

https://psychcentralforums.com/coping-with-emotions/

You didn't mention if you're receiving any professional mental health services. Hopefully you are. Suicidal thoughts are nothing to mess around with alone. Here are links to 10 articles, from Psych Central's archives, that (hopefully) may be of some help:

Suicidal? Don't Throw Away Your Shot

Suicidal? What Van Gogh's Life Can Teach You

When You Feel Absolutely Awful About Yourself—Regularly

How to Stop Punishing Yourself

https://psychcentral.com/blog/breaki...ds-of-badness/

https://psychcentral.com/blog/a-tech...nful-feelings/

https://psychcentral.com/blog/how-to...-and-helpless/

https://psychcentral.com/blog/8-step...yourself-more/

https://blogs.psychcentral.com/child...ing-mechanism/

https://psychcentral.com/blog/how-to...idal-thoughts/

I hope you find PC to be of benefit.

((((((((( Hang in there, Me... HUGS )))))))))

Thank you so much! It’s nice to hear that this can help others too because I understand the things that some people have to go through and one of the things that I want to do is to help people more. Thank you. Btw, your English is amazing