[evildouble102]

I've had a hard time the last month. I called in "sick" because I couldn't stop crying to go into work. Granted I had mononucleosis and now my doc is wondering if maybe all this tiredness and falling asleep like I bet I fell asleep or nodded off a dozen times today easy. I know I miss my twin sister who I haven't seen in going on 5 months and who seems to be cold hearted. My grandmother passed away today about dinner time as well; not that it was totally unexpected, just there's never a good time or whatever

[Susan27]

hi evildouble, so sorry about your grandmother that's a hard thing anytime, you are right, but on a holiday can feel even tougher. my boyfriend has acute chronic mono and was sleeping all the time, depressed and just generally feeling horrible. it causes depression too. you explained a lot of things that would make you feel depressed. i hope you are doing OK

susan

[nowheretorun]

(((evildouble))) hard times, i'm sorry to hear of your loss.. let us be here to listen and care....

[evildouble102]

thankyou both. I can't narrow down when I started sleeping a lot here and there or falling asleep all the time. My regular doctor ordered some bloodwork to check some things, hopefully we'll have the results by saturday for my psychiatrist appointment. Also today I messed up on my meds took trilafon this morning instead of tonight on accident. The thing is I was taking it morning and night for a whhile so it's hard to say if that had to do with it really... We'll have to see how I am tomorrow I guess. I'm a little worried; I woke up crying about my grandmother this morning and I'm starting a new job thursday; they're not actually open yet, they're setting up the store and then I'll be a cashier. No services till spring for her; I t hink she's becoming cremated and put with her first husband. And then I'm worried I'm not going to be able to make it to my therapy appointment tomorrow because of lack of transportation.

[mrsmoggles]

I am sorry to hear your grandmother passed away. My hubby and I took mine in when no one had enough time to devote to her as she had alzheimers. She passed away at beginning of November and I had just gotten out of surgery. I just, ugghhh, too much at once it seemed.

I hope you take some time for yourself and allow the memories of good thoughts on her flow with your tears...maybe in a shower (so when you all slobbery and snotty it is easy to wipe off :P )That seemed to help.

I hope your tests are going to come back letting you know some definatively things going on and that youe whole health is returned soon.
melanie

[Susan27]

i think with all the new things that have hit you the road might be a bit bumpy for a while but try and just take it one day at a time and do the best you can.

did you figure your your transportation thing yet. would be a good idea for you to make your appt. for the support.

[mlpHolmes]

I am so sorry you are going through a multitude of huge problems. I so glad though you posted here, perhaps we can help lighten your burdens. We do care you know. You are never alone. I will keep you in my thoughts & prayers to help you through these difficult times.