Apparently my efforts are never good enough

So I have no driver's license but I'm trying get it. The other person I have to help me is my dad. My boyfriend lives a half hour away so I can't expect him to come up evey day and teach me. I dont try much cause my dad who's 67 seems to get made at any little mistake I make according to him . I either trun to fast or not fast enough ect. I got so upset I went into to anxiety blackout and spaced , forgot what that break and Acceleration was and he got mad of that so I just stopped the car , got out and back in the passenger seat. I don't know what's his problem is. Ever since my mom died , and I started dating he's changed. I think hes bi polar or something . I just want to get my driver's license so I can be more independent . I don't understand.

I have no idea what is going on with dad , but as the virus ban lifts there will be plenty of driving schools you could use , no emotion or stress that way . . . just a thought . .

Thank you for the suggestion unfortunately I I've in the middle of nowhere basically and that's not a option