[Debby]

I'm depressed have been for over a year now. My husband had a heart attack recently and is recovering. I feel selfish saying this but I feel very alone. Obliviously he is
concerned about his health ( as am I ) , but
I feel I have lost the closest person to me who
understands somewhat. I can't really tell him how
I feel as he has enough on his plate.

A perfectly understandable feeling. Good for you to express it outload. Don't be so sure you can't talk about this with your husband. It might draw you closer so long as no blaming is involved. If not than maybe there is a support group in your community. Someway to connect with other's who like you are living with and caring for some who is recovering from a heart attack.

And of course.... people are always here to listen to your cries. Feel free to write about it. No one will judge you. No one will condemn you. No one will think badly of you. Let it out one way or another. We are here to listen and to help hold you up.

You are not alone.... ((((debby)))))

[stefano]

Since you both are enduring hardships, this should draw you closer, as long as you don't compete who's suffering more. I know it's difficult... just to throw the idea in...

The best of luck

[Susan27]

hi debby and welcome!! i don't think it's unusual to miss somebody even though they have things going on. the mind might get it but that doesn't satisfy the heart.

you can miss him and it's not selfish...just how you feel. my bf is in florida cuz his aunt died and i've cared more about how he isn't here for me than i have about what he's dealing with. i care, don't get me wrong...i just miss being with him and feel so lonely.

it's OK. just human

[Debby]

Thanks for the advice. It's nice to know I can talk
here and not have the worry about causing
any distress to my husband, as I know he
has a lot on his mind.

[Susan27]

absolutely!!! venting and letting it out...and getting to be so honest and know people will understand. it's just expressing ourselves and for once, getting to be open and honest w/o having to worry about driving someone away.

like you can scream out I MISS HIM AND I WISH HE WASN'T SICK SO HE COULD BE HERE FOR ME!!!!!

and having that just be OK

[Doh2007]

I'm so sorry you're going through a tough time and so is your husband.

Well said Susan!! Never underestimate the power of a good honest and heart felt SCREAM. I'd second that emotion as a great way to get one's power back.

Be honest about your needs Debbie so as not to discount them and bury them and get sicker in the process. Let us stand with you and your husband as you regain your strength.

I'm in the mood for celebrating the invisible today. That means noticing a blessing hiden in the everyday. So many pass by when we are contemplating how to survive. Celebrate the invisible healing you recieve by knowing you are loved. Not for what you do but simply for who you are.

Blessings.........

[Fuzzybear]

(((((((((((( Debby ))))))))))))

[Debby]

Thanks Chocolatelover for such a lovely message,
It made me feel good. Also to everyone else, I really
appreciate the thoughts.

You are most welcome Debby.... how are you doing these days? Thinking about you and praying for your family.

Blessings........

[Debby]

okay I guess . I can't wait to see my counselor on Monday.
Someone who know's what my depression has been like,
and what my husband and I are dealing with.

Hang in there. It's really good you have a counsellor to talk with about this stuff. Can't be easy but at least having somewhere to turn for support makes it all a little more tolerable.

Hope you find cause for celebration today.... well I guess you have in a small way.... knowing in a couple of days you will get a release.

I'm trying to think of something special I can do today with my son. School starts back up in a couple of days and we've done little with the time. I've been pretty isolated and reclusive while he's played video games and had buddies over to play with him most of the time. I still haven't moved from my quiet place but maybe a movie is something I can work myself up for tonight.

Take care.....

[Debby]

I know what you mean about not doing much with your
son, I feel excatly the same way !!! My son has been playing
his games etc. I know I feel much better when I watch
a movie together...
Enjoy your evening together .