Depression Vent Room for Misfits

Hi! If you need a place to say what hurts & you don't know where to say it, I hope you can feel comfortable here. I sometimes feel like I don't fit anywhere, & I think that there are others who can relate to that & might feel more comfortable in a thread for us misfits. As for myself, I can do very well, & then I get depressed. It can be quite a struggle at times, & then I'm back on track again. I've been thinking I need a place where I don't feel like a weird misfit. So I thought maybe we could form an ongoing vent place for us types.

I think this is a great idea.

Although I've been kicking around the mental health system where I live for over 20 years, I still don't have anything in the way of an actual diagnosis. So I don't feel as though I can legitimately claim to be a "member" of any of the forums in the "Mental Health Support" listing in the main menu (e.g. Depression, Bipolar, Anxiety, Panic & Phobias, etc.) I do have at least a tenuous connection to the LGBTQ+ forum. (It's in the T.) But that forum sees very little activity in general (especially the T part.)

So, anyway, I think having a place for us mental health misfits to check in would be nice if there were to be sufficient interest. I can't say how active I'd be. I mostly just greet new members &, periodically, reply to threads in the Games forum. But it seems it would be a comfort to know such a place as you offer was here. So thanks for this. I hope it becomes a great success!

Thank you so much, @Skeezyks, for your reply. You are highly respected here at PC, which I saw right away when I was new a year ago. I hope it's ok to say God bless you. From my point of view (& I bet for many others here) your links that you provide to newer members are wonderful & generous gifts to those who are seeking help. I feel it's quite an honor to receive your reply to this thread!

}}} Breaking Dawn !!! {{{

Awww @Skeezyks, thank you so much!

Thanks for starting this thread Breaking Dawn. Yes can relate to sometimes doing okay and then becoming depressed. Did ok this weekend and walked outside in the beautiful weather Saturday. Then Sunday had very little motivation and did little, wanted to go shopping and walk outside. No didn’t feel like since felt I don’t know sad, down, hitting rock bottom, between grief symptoms and pandemic ongoing. Anyway today was better.

Cheers.

Thanks for starting this thread @Breaking Dawn ! I think I definitely fit in with the misfits!

Diagnoses:
PTSD with Dissociative Symptoms, Borderline Personality Disorder, Generalized Anxiety Disorder, Fibromyalgia and Chronic Pain

Breaking Dawn,

Love the title of the thread--made me think of the Rudolf the Red nose Reindeer and all of his misfit friends--really loved that movie as a child and what it said about misfits.

I think I have been dealing with a bit of on and off depression lately--it makes me sleep more and do less including logging into PC less and not wanting to talk to people as much or, really, do much of anything other than channel surf and watch Youtube videos. Then when I see think of how little I accomplished that day--it makes me feel a little worse about myself. A walk helps a little with this but lately sometimes my chemo makes it harder to even walk. Fortunately, my chemo will be over soon. Only one more to go for a while!

Thanks, @Breaking Dawn... good idea to have such a thread. Hopefully we misfits will fit in.

On the other hand, is it possible not to fit in either a non-misfit or misfit thread? Then I guess one would be a true misfit, or not one at all... or both!

When I feel depressed my gender identity issues mushroom. When my gender identity issues swell, it makes me depressed. More often than not, I don't which is the cause of which. It's that way now. I keep doing what needs to be done regardless. But it can sometimes be a chore.

I do not ''do enough'' is what they always told me. It's very boring. They suck and are stinky

I couldn't do much today, feeling like a sad rag doll. I had a rag doll named Mary that I loved very much when I was little. I hope you, all of you, can think of someone who has loved you & made you know there was something special & important about you. I had an aunt who made me feel that way when I was growing up. In psychology they call that a protective factor, which gives us an advantage, so we somehow make it, regardless of our unfortunate circumstances. Anyway, I'm just going through a little slump right now & I know I'll be fine. And thank you so very much for being there for the rest of us.Take care, dear PC friends.

My therapist calls that mitigating factors. In my case, my paternal grandparents.

I'm definately a misfit. Haven't left my apartment in over a year. Have only spoken with my long time girlfriend who I live with during that year. Have been severely depressed for 3 1/2 years this time. Have had other depression episodes in the past. Before 2017, 2008 was the prev. extended episode. Ended up in the hospital in 2017. When I left I wasn't feeling any better but didn't want to tell them how severe my depression was because I didn't want to stay any longer. Nothing anyone can do or could have done. I was there about 2 weeks, mental ward. I only had to pay $2,100 out of a $164,000. bill. (medicare) 3 meals a day, talked to a psychiatrist for 5 mins a day. There were groups each day, rarely attended any. I would just eat & go back to bed & listen for my name to talk to the psych. Got my vitals checked 3 times a day. My son called me on my birthday & father's day this year. Hadn't heard from him in over 2 years. He was prob. Too embarrassed.Too embarrassed to call him back. He may have beaten his drug addiction. He ended up in jai for 6 mos after living in his mom's garage. Not strong enough to call my son & say how proud of him if he has beaten his addiction. Afraid I'll tell him how pathetic I've become. I don't take any meds, or drink, etc. Long time recovering Catholic. Extreme guilt. Sorry so long. Not sre why my girlfriend still wants me here. Wish I could leave her the money I have. Pray ea. night to pass naturally, know you're not supposed to be that way, gutless.. Hope I haven't made anyone feel worse. I admire all of you helping others. . I don't help anyone. Been too embarrassed to even tell all of you of my pathetic life here. Thanks

Hi. I too would love a misfit category. Been diagnosed with bi-polar & Anxiety for years, meds don’t seem to help nor does therapy. This makes me very angry because I can’t find a way to fix myself. Exercise used to work but effect doesn’t last that long anymore & no I haven’t stoped trying. It feels like I’m bashing my head against the wall. I hate asking for help & not knowing how to fix my own problems. Sorry for the rant. I wish there was a place where I could vent some of the anger at myself for feeling like S#%t!

dont be sad

Thank you for making this Breaking Dawn!

Not sure if I’m lazy or it’s depression or both (diagnosed with depression unspecified or the like, it’s been a while) but I have trouble doing simple tasks. I can do whatever it is that I don’t have to do within a certain timeframe and shoot myself in the foot by leaving everything for the next day.

Something I just remembered was when I was at the pediatrician’s office with my mom’s fiancée at the time. I slid my school uniform shoes off with my feet instead of unvelcroing them with my hands and taking them off that way. He said something about how I was lazy just like my sisters (who aren’t lazy, thank you very much). I was in elementary school, probably third or second grade and it took me aback so I just said “Okay” and sat on the exam table staring at the ground. He said something after that to me but I don’t remember. The way it made me feel was horrible and I remember not being angry but just this odd feeling of “what?”

He hasn’t lived with us for three years and I hate thinking about him. I thought moving away from the state I grew up in would change things but it didn’t — I know that running doesn’t help now though. It’s tiring to think about the eggshells we had to walk on to not make him be mean.

Today I was sad and it didn’t help that I slept poorly last night. Think I need a new a/c and heater since both seem to be noisy and keep me awake sometimes. Need to take NyQuil tonight maybe. Took walks today and watched a movie which helped some, Beetlejuice.

Just another day today... not happy (what is that, anyway?) But not particularly sad either... just sort-of ho-hum-m-m-m-m...

Hi! Yesterday something wonderful happened for me. I had a couple of days that were very difficult, then things got better. I have voices & for some reason we were able to have meaningful discussions about God, & principles/ethics, & the ability to change. Today I don't feel the apprehension like I did. I'm hoping that I'm experiencing a switch to a better path that I have wished for.