Depression Vent Room for Misfits

Hi! If you need a place to say what hurts & you don't know where to say it, I hope you can feel comfortable here. I sometimes feel like I don't fit anywhere, & I think that there are others who can relate to that & might feel more comfortable in a thread for us misfits. As for myself, I can do very well, & then I get depressed. It can be quite a struggle at times, & then I'm back on track again. I've been thinking I need a place where I don't feel like a weird misfit. So I thought maybe we could form an ongoing vent place for us types.

I think this is a great idea.

Although I've been kicking around the mental health system where I live for over 20 years, I still don't have anything in the way of an actual diagnosis. So I don't feel as though I can legitimately claim to be a "member" of any of the forums in the "Mental Health Support" listing in the main menu (e.g. Depression, Bipolar, Anxiety, Panic & Phobias, etc.) I do have at least a tenuous connection to the LGBTQ+ forum. (It's in the T.) But that forum sees very little activity in general (especially the T part.)

So, anyway, I think having a place for us mental health misfits to check in would be nice if there were to be sufficient interest. I can't say how active I'd be. I mostly just greet new members &, periodically, reply to threads in the Games forum. But it seems it would be a comfort to know such a place as you offer was here. So thanks for this. I hope it becomes a great success!

Thank you so much, @Skeezyks, for your reply. You are highly respected here at PC, which I saw right away when I was new a year ago. I hope it's ok to say God bless you. From my point of view (& I bet for many others here) your links that you provide to newer members are wonderful & generous gifts to those who are seeking help. I feel it's quite an honor to receive your reply to this thread!

}}} Breaking Dawn !!! {{{

Awww @Skeezyks, thank you so much!

Thanks for starting this thread Breaking Dawn. Yes can relate to sometimes doing okay and then becoming depressed. Did ok this weekend and walked outside in the beautiful weather Saturday. Then Sunday had very little motivation and did little, wanted to go shopping and walk outside. No didn’t feel like since felt I don’t know sad, down, hitting rock bottom, between grief symptoms and pandemic ongoing. Anyway today was better.

Cheers.

Thanks for starting this thread @Breaking Dawn ! I think I definitely fit in with the misfits!

Breaking Dawn,

Love the title of the thread--made me think of the Rudolf the Red nose Reindeer and all of his misfit friends--really loved that movie as a child and what it said about misfits.

I think I have been dealing with a bit of on and off depression lately--it makes me sleep more and do less including logging into PC less and not wanting to talk to people as much or, really, do much of anything other than channel surf and watch Youtube videos. Then when I see think of how little I accomplished that day--it makes me feel a little worse about myself. A walk helps a little with this but lately sometimes my chemo makes it harder to even walk. Fortunately, my chemo will be over soon. Only one more to go for a while!

Thanks, @Breaking Dawn... good idea to have such a thread. Hopefully we misfits will fit in.

On the other hand, is it possible not to fit in either a non-misfit or misfit thread? Then I guess one would be a true misfit, or not one at all... or both!

When I feel depressed my gender identity issues mushroom. When my gender identity issues swell, it makes me depressed. More often than not, I don't which is the cause of which. It's that way now. I keep doing what needs to be done regardless. But it can sometimes be a chore.

I do not ''do enough'' is what they always told me. It's very boring. They suck and are stinky

I couldn't do much today, feeling like a sad rag doll. I had a rag doll named Mary that I loved very much when I was little. I hope you, all of you, can think of someone who has loved you & made you know there was something special & important about you. I had an aunt who made me feel that way when I was growing up. In psychology they call that a protective factor, which gives us an advantage, so we somehow make it, regardless of our unfortunate circumstances. Anyway, I'm just going through a little slump right now & I know I'll be fine. And thank you so very much for being there for the rest of us.Take care, dear PC friends.

Today I was sad and it didn’t help that I slept poorly last night. Think I need a new a/c and heater since both seem to be noisy and keep me awake sometimes. Need to take NyQuil tonight maybe. Took walks today and watched a movie which helped some, Beetlejuice.

Just another day today... not happy (what is that, anyway?) But not particularly sad either... just sort-of ho-hum-m-m-m-m...

Hi! Yesterday something wonderful happened for me. I had a couple of days that were very difficult, then things got better. I have voices & for some reason we were able to have meaningful discussions about God, & principles/ethics, & the ability to change. Today I don't feel the apprehension like I did. I'm hoping that I'm experiencing a switch to a better path that I have wished for.

My class mates mock me because I'm poor. My friends leave me telling that I talk too much and that I'm crazy. They say I embarrass them. And my own brother hates me. My mom got high expectations about me. I feel like the whole world is trying to strangle me. All I want to say is Im still 15 give me a break, give me some freedom, dont cage me.

I'm definitely a misfit. I don't fit in well with people IRL. I usually just hang out with one friend at a time which makes it better and not so obvious that I don't fit. Online I feel like I fit in with PC especially with the Schizophrenia and Psychosis forum except that I don't game and it seems like everyone games in that forum so I do feel a little out of place. It's good to have a place where all the misfits can fit together!

The past two days were unusually busy being out in the world (where I typically try to avoid going.) Now the old calendar's looking pretty clear. So that's a good thing. Also, after a long stretch of winter-like weather, we're supposedly going to have a week or so of normal & even above normal temperatures. So that's a positive too. Gee... with all of that going on (or not going on depending on how you look at it) I may start to feel positively giddy!

Thank you dear misfits!! You help me feel less weird and more acceptable in this very complicated & difficult world. God bless all of you, dear wonderful friends!!

Thanks to everyone and often feel like I’m a misfit with not fitting in anywhere really. Maybe that is alone is depressing, but I’m carrying on and persevering despite it all.

Except at some of the dreadful high school dances I attended (I can't dance well at all), I never thought of myself as socially anxious because I was talkative in my classes (liked to participate) but always had a very small group of friends in hs and college. Given that my current situation is that my husband is my only close friend, I do think I have have anxiety about different things that makes me feel like a misfit. For example, when I put out the trash earlier this week and my neighbor across the street showed me his new flag and flag pole enthusiastically, I agreed it looked great but felt extremely self conscious (making me very quiet) about my hair loss (though I wear a hat when I go outside). Before that, for the longest time I felt uncomfortable talking to people in the neighborhood because of my 2015 attempt where fire trucks, ambulances, and many police cars came. That 2015 attempt still makes me feel like I have a serious mental illness (and ever since I manage my mental illness daily) which makes me feel like a misfit.

I was not aware of having depression before my late 30’s, though a series of events did happen that brought me down. The bad elementary school, bully experience, unrequited crushes on boys throughout middle-high school, love triangles in my early 20’s. But, the great majority of all those times had lots of good times and friends.

Nothing much changes for me from one day to the next... same old, same old. It's colder today than it was yesterday as well as overcast. I smell like a baby...

I used to use baby powder Papa bear and I were talking about buying a ''lead''... for something. I do not think we will purchase that item. Maybe another teddy bear instead

Sorry about the ''silly'' post. I haven't been feeling down most of the day. Just my usual grrrrrrness.

I have to eat some cereal (I do not like shredded wheat or sugarless Alpen, I find them boring and tasteless especially since I usually still try to only eat on one side of my mouth then I have to clean my fangs. I try to avoid mornings I'm late, I don't think I will have much sleep

hugs and respect to all

Yesterday was vacuuming day. Every Saturday (or sometimes Friday) I vacuum our townhome unit. It takes me a couple of hours or so. Once I'm done, I'm always wasted. And it takes me a day or two to recover. So today my legs feel sort-of like Jello. Still I did take our pooch for a nice walk early this afternoon. It was sunny but there was a cold breeze.

Actually I like shredded wheat. I have cereal for breakfast pretty-much every morning with either banana or some variety of berry. I also like Wheat Chex, Grape Nuts, & Quaker Oatmeal Squares. Oatmeal Squares are pre-sweetened. But, on the others, I sprinkle brown sugar to sweeten my grumpy personality...