[2sad]

my first ad here . my last loss on wednesday b4 last is stil fresh in my body and soul . i thing i lost 1000 dollars at one day , and i am so sad since i took money i shouldn't have taken. i think over all i lost since 2004 2000 dollars and that is on top of 2000 dollars on 2003 , which were on top of maby 6000 dollars on 2002 . my work is unstable, i was high for only 10 days those 10 days b4 that day above, in which i managed 2 win 600 dollars . that gave me a traumatic feeling and given me a big depression and so mush law self esteem

and i am only trying 2 save 3000 dollars to go to canada for a long vacation and maybe find a wife ,
i am probably a bipolar also ,and i have all the difficulties in life that can make anyone normal depressed , - unstable work, difficulties in housing , poverty ,
Does anyone know where i should start and tell me ?

please

I totally agree that seeing a doctor to get properly diagnosed is the right thing to do. I wonder why you think you have bi-polar disorder? Is this something you have researched? Do mood disorders run in your family? Does the gambling only occur when you feel "manic"? IF IF IF you do have BiP d/o, the right meds will help so much!

Something else you may want to look into is Gambling Anonymous, International. According to their website, they do have meetings in Isreal.

http://www.gamblersanonymous.org/mtgdirISR.html

At least you'd have some people to talk to - it's always nice to have people around who understand a bit about what you are going through. The financial pressures would be something they would understand.

I'm SO glad you found this site. Please keep posting! emmy

[Wants2Fly]

Welcome, 2 sad. I am a fairly recent new member.

There is much love and support for you here. Also, good insights.

I've been a 12-step program for an addiction for many, many years, and I also highly recommend it. Esp. when we are struggling with financial problems that can make therapy seem too costly (especially in our sickness and despair), GA might be a good starting point. Therapy is good, too.

I hope we will be hearing more from you.