[annoyedgrunt84]

It's so stupid that people I haven't had contact with in years can still make me mad enough that i slam my fist on the desk and yell into the air when no one is even there. The worst part is feeling like people who have upset me were probably right, I'm probably toxic and emotionally immature and people are right to isolate me and make me feel like an asshole.

[MickeyCheeky]

So Sorry things are not being good! Please do not give up! i don't think anyone deserves to be isolated and certainly not you. Managing anger or other personality traits can be difficult but i think it can be done. Are you currently getting any Help? Please do try your best. Hope things will improve really soon for everyone. Sending many Safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @annoyedgrunt84, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!

Originally Posted by annoyedgrunt84

It's so stupid that people I haven't had contact with in years can still make me mad enough that i slam my fist on the desk and yell into the air when no one is even there. The worst part is feeling like people who have upset me were probably right, I'm probably toxic and emotionally immature and people are right to isolate me and make me feel like an asshole.

Funny how I go through that myself. There's some idle time by myself when it happens. Mostly I'm thinking about my family from the past and how they had upset me. What's more strange is that they have passed away years ago. I felt like I regretted that I didn't yell at them enough. Well, I did, but I felt like I should have yelled more. Well, maybe it was all good that I didn't holler at them more.

[annoyedgrunt84]

I just feel like being angry is new development for me. Certainly in the last 2-3 years.

[leomama]

Originally Posted by annoyedgrunt84

It's so stupid that people I haven't had contact with in years can still make me mad enough that i slam my fist on the desk and yell into the air when no one is even there. The worst part is feeling like people who have upset me were probably right, I'm probably toxic and emotionally immature and people are right to isolate me and make me feel like an asshole.

I see a recurrent theme in your posts. You sound lonely. Do you have any friends in real life?

[mssweatypalms]

It happens to me sometimes, too. I remember those people I burned bridges with and get angry at myself when I think of how I should've hurt them more through my words. There are times I think about the arguments and how I could've proven my point better. It makes me so mad that it ruins my mood. When I'm back to reality, I try to release the tension by cleaning my room.

[RoxanneToto]

I feel this fairly often, I’m not sure it really is you, though. Some of these people are almost certainly projecting, when they say you’re toxic or whatever (as an example, I got told to “grow up” once by a high school class mate who was being very immature in that moment, while I was trying to stop him acting the idiot… actually I don’t think he ever did grow up, but that’s no longer my problem!). If you’re concerned that it *is* you, it’s a good idea to get the opinion of someone you trust.