[T4bbyCat]

Congratulations on #1000!

Continuing to look for places to live before I'm kicked out of my current arrangement. If I'm lucky, I'll be near someplace bears of that kind call home as well. They're expanding westward, I hear...

[Rose76]

I'm physically weak. I gotta get tested for anemia. I probably need some I/V iron.

I hired someone to help me do housework today. She got a lot done. Mostly I sat and sorted thru piles of old paperwork. I'll definitely have her come back. First I got to find out why I get light-headed every time I go from sitting to standing. I'm really not depressed today. Just so tired.

[Deilla]

It's the weekend and I'm not very happy. I'm all alone.

[Rose76]

I've been sleeping well. I'm not depressed. When I get up and just walk across a room, I can feel my heart beating hard, but there's no chest pain. I see a doctor on Tues. I'm hungry, but cooking seems too hard. Easier to just go pick up something. Driving is not hard because I'm sitting.

[CANDC]

@Rose76 hoping for the best outcome for you.

[T4bbyCat]

Originally Posted by Deilla

It's the weekend and I'm not very happy. I'm all alone.

You have company here, at least... Also, just thought I'd mention the "A Lonely Life" forum, where many others can identify and help.

[Breaking Dawn]

Originally Posted by Open Eyes

My depression has been so severe that I really don’t want to wake up anymore.

I just can’t witness yet another mental decline. Just too many years of this 😢

I could hang out in the grief forum too. A lot of days I sit and cry and sleep. I wake up in the middle of the night and sit and cry.

I am so tired, it’s too much.

I feel your pain, dear @Open Eyes. And I can relate. Please keep trying to hang in there. It won't stay this way. There is something better & worth waiting for up ahead. God bless you!

[Breaking Dawn]

Originally Posted by Fuzzybear

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In a lot of pain.

[Rose76]

I'm in the Urgent Care Clinic at the hospital. I can't walk more than a few yards. They're sending me to the ER next door. I was admitted to this hospital 3 times in the past 12 months. I'm sick of being unwell, but I do need to be here. I'm guessing this is severe anemia. I kind of hope it's that because anemia can be fixed. They will also assess my heart. I've never been diagnosed with heart disease. I'm not depressed, so that's good.

[Breaking Dawn]

Originally Posted by Rose76

I'm in the Urgent Care Clinic at the hospital. I can't walk more than a few yards. They're sending me to the ER next door. I was admitted to this hospital 3 times in the past 12 months. I'm sick of being unwell, but I do need to be here. I'm guessing this is severe anemia. I kind of hope it's that because anemia can be fixed. They will also assess my heart. I've never been diagnosed with heart disease. I'm not depressed, so that's good.

Good for you, for being there, @Rose76! It's all going to turn out ok, I bet you! Hang in there, friend, you trooper, you! My fingers are crossed tight for you!

[Rose76]

@Breaking Dawn Thanks for the encouraging words. This is a good, teaching hospital. I believe they'll get me fixed up.

[CANDC]

@Rose76 sorry to hear life is disrupted. Hope you get a good outcome soon.

An interesting morning this morning. Around 6 AM my belly hurt. I was concerned and scared about it. It went away after a half hour. I got in my car this morning and discovered that someone had gotten in to my car overnight. No damage and nothing stolen but some little things I had inside were thrown around. I guess I might have forgotten to lock the doors yesterday. It seems like that happens when I forget to lock the doors.

[Rose76]

Originally Posted by CANDC

@Rose76 sorry to hear life is disrupted. Hope you get a good outcome soon.

Thank you, @CANDC - I'm getting good care. They're about to give me a transfusion of red blood cells. The problem is anemia. That's fixable, so I'm relieved.

[Mittrei]

I thought things were getting better. But still one day up, one day down.

Went to the dentist this morning for a check up. I have a cavity that's inside of a crown that I had. I've noticed that there are some pain in that area. I'm not happy that it has to be done, but I feel that a problem can be solved. It's going to be somewhat costly to do. It's been fairly rough being retired with not much money coming in and more going out.

[Rose76]

Very depressed. Blood transfusions at hospital helped, but still weak. After being there for 24 hrs, I hated the hospital. All night in the ER I listen to 2 mentally disturbed patients screaming. They wanted to admit me, but I left AMA. Beds are strewed in the hallways.

[3rd rock]

I'm going to try and submit to agencies that have previously rejected me. Some agencies say that if one of their agents passes on your work you're free to submit to one of the others, and it's those agencies I'll target. I've decided that if I can't get an agent by the end of the year, I'll ditch agencies and try submitting to publishers directly. Big publishers don't take submissions directly from authors, but smaller publishers do. That may wind up being a more viable path forward.

[Breaking Dawn]

Originally Posted by 3rd rock

I'm going to try and submit to agencies that have previously rejected me. Some agencies say that if one of their agents passes on your work you're free to submit to one of the others, and it's those agencies I'll target. I've decided that if I can't get an agent by the end of the year, I'll ditch agencies and try submitting to publishers directly. Big publishers don't take submissions directly from authors, but smaller publishers do. That may wind up being a more viable path forward.

This is so great to hear, @3rd rock!

[T4bbyCat]

Originally Posted by 3rd rock

Big publishers don't take submissions directly from authors, but smaller publishers do. That may wind up being a more viable path forward.

Is there some way to "self publish" nowadays, such as on Amazon? I thought there was a trend to skip the middleman and get your work out to readers directly. Then again, maybe it's tough without some backing.

It's a tough business, as with acting, sports, etc. Superstars enjoy riches, but breaking into the field is tough (and luck seems crucial). Nonetheless, all those superstars also started somewhere. It pays not to be discouraged and just keep at it...

[Rose76]

I'm disenchanted with where I get my healthcare. Tuesday I will get intravenous iron. I felt like I had to twist arms to get that. I'm still very anemic, despite 2 bags of blood Monday night in the ER. The ECG was abnormal. I looked up the meaning. The abnormality indicates that the heart is being overworked. Anemia does that. Heat adds to the strain. So I am just lazing around. I feel blue.

[divine1966]

Originally Posted by Rose76

I'm disenchanted with where I get my healthcare. Tuesday I will get intravenous iron. I felt like I had to twist arms to get that. I'm still very anemic, despite 2 bags of blood Monday night in the ER. The ECG was abnormal. I looked up the meaning. The abnormality indicates that the heart is being overworked. Anemia does that. Heat adds to the strain. So I am just lazing around. I feel blue.

Did they check for any internal bleeding? A friend of mine was very anemic with very low iron until they found she had a bleeding stomach ulcer that was causing bliss loss and resulted in anemia. She was on iron supplements and stomach meds for awhile and her anemia is gone

[Rose76]

Originally Posted by divine1966

Did they check for any internal bleeding? A friend of mine was very anemic with very low iron until they found she had a bleeding stomach ulcer that was causing bliss loss and resulted in anemia. She was on iron supplements and stomach meds for awhile and her anemia is gone

For 6 years they've been looking for where I could be losing blood from. Upper and lower endoscopies. I swallowed a camera. They presume there's bleeding from within the GI tract. I just got over severe diverticulitis. I probably had diverticular bleeding.

I'm fine sitting or reclining. On my feet, I feel close to collapsing. I can't face that emergency dept again. It's pandemonium. Some nurses are mean. Tues I go for I/V iron. I want to hang on for that.

[Rose76]

I'm just getting weaker. I should go to the ER. I think I need another bag of red blood cells. I can barely stand long enough to go to the kitchen to get something to eat or drink.

But I just don't want to go back there. Just thinking about it gets me depressed.

As long as I stay on the couch, I feel very comfortable. Possibly, I'll just recover on my own. Not likely, but I just don't care.

[3rd rock]

The apartment manager is coming in to do smoke alarm inspections later this week. So I have to tidy up a bit.

I'm very depressed over my inability to get my novel published.