[will19]

I was busy this morning and fairly busy in the afternoon. I'm feeling OK - not great like euphoric but not terrible either. Just so-so. It's a three day weekend now. When I was working, it was something to look forward to. But being retired, I'm not crazy about it. I have some apprehensions that it might be noisy at where I live. Also I don't like weekends because, when I get out and about, there are more crowds. There's an extension of an extra day this time.

The following week on the 6th, I have two physical exams at the same time and place. I hope I'll pass. I feel fine physically but you never know. Hugs to all from me who have posted on here!

[TheGal]

I feel stuck and it's a very uncomfortable feeling.

[Buffy01]

I been trying to figure out what is causing me to feel down all the time

[will19]

I've been feeling down a lot lately. Maybe it's because of spring. Spring has been a bad season for me for a good long time. I'm feeling like I can't do anything right or what I do comes out wrong. Feeling discouraged.

[TheGal]

I'm down today and it's only a quarter to six in the morning.

[Buffy01]

I think my nephew is :sadhug stressing me out

[3rd rock]

This week has seemed much longer than most weeks, for some reason. However, now that I have only one more shift to get through at work I'm feeling a little better. All week long I had that vague anticipation that something bad was going to happen, but nothing bad has happened. I suppose there's still one day left...

There's a new supervisor at work. He's very quiet, he doesn't speak much. But, not in a rude way, it's in a more introverted way. So far, he seems easy enough to work with. Whenever a new supervisor shows up, it's always a risk that he might be one of those that makes your life miserable for no reason. But this one seems okay.

[giddykitty]

Hello! I'm back from my trip and finally starting to settle back into the regular routine. Waking up earlier though because of the summer daylight hours being earlier. Today I had to get up because I was too hungry. Getting like enough sleep, but still would like a little bit more...especially when it gets busier again in a few weeks. Ok, time to watch morning soap opera. lol

[TheGal]

Today I'm not feeling too well...

[hiddenaway]

Woke up sad after remembering it’s Saturday.

Drew’s old episodes/other things he’s done only help so much.

[giddykitty]

I'm bored. I'm missing the kids from my weekend getaway.

[Buffy01]

I think I have hidden anger that is causing me to feel awful all the time :hug that I don’t know how to let go.

[hiddenaway]

Feeling a bit less sad now, thankfully.

[giddykitty]

I'm feeling low energy and tired tonight, but you know, it's already almost 1am and I'm still awake. I don't know what I'm saying. Ugh!

[TheGal]

I am crying today... I am so sad...

[will19]

I'm feeling very depressed lately. Mainly because of where I live. It's been bad lately. The neighbors are not getting along and the manager at where is constantly sending out notices to us on how to act and the "don't do this" stuff. Recently I lost an only good friend at my place. We were getting along well and then suddenly she became stand-offish with me. Well there had to be a reason but I don't know what it is. And then she stabbed me in the back, reporting me to the manager over something minor. Sad to say things suddenly turned for the worst just after I signed a lease for a full year. That means a full year of madness now.

[Rose76]

The quality of my sleep last night was very poor. I'm still in pajamas. I'm sad. My trip far away to visit family didn't turn out so good. I thought it would be a nice reunion, and I'ld come back feeling closer to them and like our bonds were strengthened. Instead I think this trip just back-fired. I realize now that I'm pretty alone in the world. I spent a nice bundle of money to no good end really. It's a depressing thought.

I really am depressed today. The main thing right now is for me to know that this will blow over. I just have to get through the few days it may take for that to happen. It may be hard for awhile.

[will19]

Originally Posted by Rose76

The quality of my sleep last night was very poor. I'm still in pajamas. I'm sad. My trip far away to visit family didn't turn out so good. I thought it would be a nice reunion, and I'ld come back feeling closer to them and like our bonds were strengthened. Instead I think this trip just back-fired. I realize now that I'm pretty alone in the world. I spent a nice bundle of money to no good end really. It's a depressing thought.

I really am depressed today. The main thing right now is for me to know that this will blow over. I just have to get through the few days it may take for that to happen. It may be hard for awhile.

I'm so sorry to hear this, Rose. Unfortunately, family can be so disappointing. I haven't been with mine for 17 years now. Back then I got together with my family because my mother passed away. After she was gone, then I didn't have any desire to go back, and that's 3000 miles away. I could have visited my sister but I was never interested because she's too bogged down (and still is even though her husband and daughter are adults) and they would insist I move back to be with them. If I did, I'd be like second class to them.

Eight years before my mother passed away, my father passed away and there was more in my family there than when my mother passed away. That time together was horrible. It seemed like being together with my family at that time was harder to deal with than having to deal with my father being gone. After my father passed away, I had no interest in going back there again but I had to visit my mother while she was alive.

For some strange reason I can't talk to my sister on the phone because she's always getting interrupted and has to hang up on my because her husband or daughter needs something. That's BS to me and this happens like all of the time. So with that, I have no interest in visiting them.

Well, at least you gave your family a shot or a chance so I think that was admirable of you to give it a try. I'm so sorry to hear how you ended up getting disappointed and hurt with this. I don't have anything to suggest for me in dealing with this, but I understand how you feel.

[Rose76]

@will19 - Thank you. Thanks for understanding. Your kindness is a help to me.

[will19]

It's early in the day still for me. I'm feeling more depressed lately. Last Friday and Saturday were bad days but it's calmed down now. But yet I feel like I'm recovering from last week. I'm mainly feeling bad about where I live because there seems to be a lot of bad feelings from my neighbors lately.

I'm still feeling depressed at this time, even though I had an exam for my skin to check for skin cancer earlier today. The doctor told me that he's impressed by what he's seen of me. I didn't sleep well last night because of the anxiety of the appointment. Even though it's a relief, I'm still feeling down. It's like I'm expecting something bad to happen, but as of now, there's nothing threatening.

Also my friend sounds depressed when I talk to him on the phone. He tells me that he's feeling alright. But I don't think so. He's been telling me it's my imagination because of having depression for me. I don't know about that.