Recovery

I was getting highly delusional and aggressive. My people locked me up in a mental asylum. Now back home after 3months+. I understand that they had no option bc I was getting increasingly aggressive.

The whole thing was unnerving. Now I feel a bit disoriented and very drowsy. I am sleeping too much and am unable to get into a routine. Plus a lot of apathy and lethargy.

Apart from the antipsychotics, I am on Prozac 20mg since the last 1.5 months. But it can't stop my drowsiness.

I NEED HELP.

I’m sorry that happened to you. I’ve no advice just wanted you to know I read your post.

I am so sorry that you are suffering. Is it the drowsiness that you need help for? Or is it something else. What have you tried already for eliminating your drowsiness? I've been in a mental hospital before. It was quite scary to me.

Yes I need help for the drowsiness. Will coffee help? I get to see the psych doc in another 2 weeks. Should I ask for a stimulant? The problem is that stimulants get me manic.

Thank you.

Apart from the drowsiness, I need help with lethargy too. I need to clean my room but I lack the interest and energy to do it.

Not well...sleeping too much, immediate memory loss, lethargy and anhedonia.
Feeling frustrated and hopeless.

And I wish I was not unemployed
In India. I really need a salary. Help me God.

What if my Mom got lethally wounded while intervening in the fight between my father and me? I would have found myself in a home for ever or maybe got a life sentence.
I am really scared.
God help me.

To live respectably one needs a salary.

Getting panic attacks later in the day or in the afternoon. Quite disabling.

My father is 80 years old. Y'day afternoon I held his hand to cross the street to the bank ATM. I thought he had changed. But Inside the ATM he tried to embrace me.. I can't tell it to my mother She will again lock me up in the psychiatric hospital.
I plan to not interact with my father too much and not touch his hand even to help him.

I have difficulty doing self care. I need to wash my hair and clean my room. But I can't push myself to do these tasks.

I'm sorry to hear about your struggles and the challenges you're facing. It can be incredibly disorienting and exhausting to go through such experiences. It's important to remember that you're not alone, and seeking help is a brave and positive step towards your recovery.

Regarding your drowsiness, it's important to address this concern with a healthcare professional, such as a psychiatrist.
They have expertise in understanding the side effects of medications and can provide guidance on managing drowsiness while still maintaining the benefits of your prescribed antipsychotics and Prozac. They may consider adjusting the dosage or exploring alternative medications that could better suit your needs. It's essential to communicate openly and honestly with your psychiatrist about your symptoms and concerns so they can work with you to find the most appropriate solution.

Here no one believes the truth of my father's incest to me. They believe that I am delusional. And my father feels good that everybody trusts him and not me. Life is hard. What did I do to deserve this?!

Thanks for replying. I saw my psychiatrist today. He reduced the dosage of one of my antipsychotics clozapine but also stopped the antidepressant Prozac. I am a bit worried if my depression is going to come back. I am going to see my psychiatrist next in a month's time from today.

I am writing down my daily tasks list here.

I need to wash my hair, dust and clean my room and take a walk in the evening.
If possible I will cook cauliflower with potato. If not, I will cook tomorrow.

I still have apathy and lethargy and want to. stay in bed most of the time.

I just washed up but could not wash my hair. I dusted only one shelf of a cupboard. I did cook cauliflower with potato, it was undercooked. It will take me time to cook properly. Now it's evening here in India. I will try to take a walk.

Back from the walk. I wish I could wash my hair and dust/clean my room a little more.
Tomorrow I will have the same chores from today. Hopefully the result will be better.

I will have to wash my hair today, even if it is at 10pm. I hope this day is good.

Finally I managed to wash my hair. Hopefully I will be able to dust and clean a part of my room after my evening walk.

Mentally and physically tired after the walk .... The dusting/cleaning will have to wait till tomorrow.

I swept and mopped my room instead. But it is a very small room. So much strength was not needed.
I am waiting for when I will want to dust and clean my room on my own.