I just got depressed again.

The last few days have been quite trying on my patience. had to jumpstart the vehicle after the interior lights were left on and then I found I couldn't upload pictures from a computer to a phone using Bluetooth only to find out later that the phone didn't have enough power so they would upload. I got upset and the next thing I knew I got some rather hurtful remarks from mother, and I'm thinking she probably didn't mean that in the heat of the moment. but still I was hurt and didn't feel like doing much of anything the rest of the day. I was all too happy to get away and be in a store with younger people shopping by myself. but after I had gotten some items from the store, I still felt pretty empty. Still nothing seemed to make me happy. I rested a while, and I cheered up only a little bit when I saw a rabbit and got a picture of that animal. My feelings of loneliness just worsened when this week started. It seemed to confirm to me how much I'm truly valued by her. It's painfully clear it won't get better now. and it makes me a little hopeless. Sometimes I wonder if anything can help this pain inside.

I am so sorry that you are in pain. Wish I knew what to say to help.


It interests me what you said about the rabbit. I often see animals when I am feeling very low and distressed.

Maybe it is just a weird coincidence, but one Christmas when I was terribly depressed, I went to church but just couldn't go inside.

I sat outside by a little wall and suddenly a frog hopped out of a bush and leaned against my shoe. It raised my spirits. It is unusual to see frogs here in December.

I don't know, but it seemed like a kiss from Heaven. It is interesting that you saw that rabbit and got a picture of it. Life is so mysterious.