[Stillhuman]

I struggle with this daily I think.

It's like my brain is stuck in a groove. No matter how much I try to challenge the behavior, it's like my brain falls back into a groove. i know the anxiety well. Happiness is foreign because it seems like something that will easily be snuffed out, or destroyed.

Has anyone ever gotten out of this kind of rut? What do you do that changes it? I realize I am depressed and anxious but it's like I can't ever just feel free of it. It's like I have created small safe spaces to protect me from the anxiety, but it feels like I have room for nothing else.

Medication is not a cure all, and often feels like it only fixes half the problem.

[TheGal]

I remember during my breakdown and for a prolonged period after that (I have psychotic depression), I could see beauty around me but I couldn't feel it. It was horrible. It took medication and time to stabilize and even out that eventually brought me back to being able to really feel something.

You said that you are trying to challenge the sense that something bad will happen to snuff out your happiness. Does that mean you're doing CBT?

I hope things get better for you and that you'll be able to enjoy the good things around you.

[TheGal]

Also, I found this website. It seems pretty decent:

Just a moment...

[Stillhuman]

Originally Posted by TheGal

I remember during my breakdown and for a prolonged period after that (I have psychotic depression), I could see beauty around me but I couldn't feel it. It was horrible. It took medication and time to stabilize and even out that eventually brought me back to being able to really feel something.

You said that you are trying to challenge the sense that something bad will happen to snuff out your happiness. Does that mean you're doing CBT?

I hope things get better for you and that you'll be able to enjoy the good things around you.

I am trying cbt and meditating. I am doing small things. Like going for a walk. Or reading a book. Anything to snap me out of it.

I do appreciate those good moments. It’s like my brain forgets easily though.

I have had a lot of upheaval over the past year and I think it makes me feel insecure.

[TheGal]

Well, you're doing good things for sure. I do daily meditation, as well, from InsightTimer. It's good to have a routine.

I hope things get better for you!

Hugs, if wanted...

[Fuzzybear]

I'm sending hugs (if wanted)

I have a lot of anxiety...