Running out of reasons to keep going.

I still can't find work, I'm about a month or two away from losing my car, I can't afford therapy or medication, and no one around me wants to help or even care. Why should I even bother anymore? No one would care that I was gone. In fact, I bet a lot of people would be happy. The more I think about it, I would finally be free.

@theeviloneisyou I am sorry you are in a dark place feeling like life is not precious in some way. I cannot change your mind, only you can do that.

I have read about people that attempted to end their life who survived. The moment they started to do what would end their life, they felt like they had made the biggest mistake of their life. I don't need any other proof than those stories of survivors to convince me not to go that route.

Losing a car is very inconvenient but that is not a reason to give up living in my mind. Have you applied for emergency benefits in your state? Many states help in that way.

People here care. I care enough to answer. I have had tough decisions before like living with friends or parents while I find a solution to my financial problems. I am not saying it is easy living, but no one knows what happens after death.

Maybe the stories we hear of people that are well documented of people that remember past lives and describe in detail which they would know only if they had lived there. What if after the mind separates from the body at death it has another life experience. We just cannot be sure what happens.

That would mean that what we do in this life could lead to the conditions of the next life experience. I would not take a chance on that being true because I could find myself having lost an opportunity and find myself in a worse situation.

If you do find yourself in crisis and considering ending your life, please consider some of the resources toward the end of this thread Our Suicidal Posting Policy & Suicide Resources

PM me if you want to discuss in private. @CANDC