[3rd rock]

I have been in treatment for about 3 weeks so far, and I have about a week left. I could apply for an extension if I want, but I don't think I want to. Because my medications are all out of whack, I'm finding it difficult to focus on treatment. Also, much of what I'm being taught I already knew anyways. Furthermore, I'm finding it difficult to relate to my peers here in treatment, although that may just be an expression of my general difficulties in socializing.

I'm deeply depressed, and I find myself experiencing random crying spells. The medication they put me on I've had to discontinue due to severe side effects which leave me all but completely disabled. Once I get out of treatment I will need to see a psychiatrist to get on a new medication, and who knows how long that will take.

The novel is not going well. I'm going to start a new draft the day after I get home from treatment. I hope to have it done by the end of September, and then a subsequent draft by the end of the year. I will pull out all the stops to get it done. My lack of progress has left me deeply depressed and very sad.