[Cthomas]

If I left? i had a friend dump me. not in the traditional sense, but i felt it and it was there. just needed to read between the lines.

They didnt come right out and say it. might as well have. I know you cant "assume" but this is a good assumption. and i believe to be right.

Just when I let my guard down. %#@&#! just falls on me. Off and on depressed today. trying to keep my chin up.

You guys are my friends right?

Colleen

[Fuzzybear]

I haven't got to know you well but I'd notice if you left and I'd miss you around here.

As usual, I have to edit and censor (and silence) my thoughts here so they aren't taken the wrong way

So if I seem like a "nothing", that probably isnt the case.

((((((((((( Colleen ))))))))))))

Kudos for realising that "assumptions", particularly global negative judgements aren't always correct

Most or all here have a good and a not so good side...

But you may well be right about this, trust your gut I wish I had done ................

[nowheretorun]

(((Cthomas)))))

i know you'd be missed C... its the depression talking... but no prob if you wanna check and see how we all feel about you... doubt you'll find any support for going anywheres..

letting you know that yes, you matter...

and fuzzster.... dont you let them tell you to be silent....

[Perna]

I think there would be a difference between whether anyone would "notice" and whether they'd necessarily comment?

Have you written your friend and said you miss them? Some people "dump" others but it doesn't look that way to them. Sometimes it helps if we say, "Hey, come back and dump me right!" :-) so we know what's "happening" for sure.

[Fuzzybear]

If it is indeed a friend, pernas advice is spot on!

Hindsight and all that.

Wish I'd had the guts and "maturity" to speak up years ago...... in real life, of course.

A beloved former T of mine called a friend, not me, a "snail"... but even snails learn.

[Cthomas]

Thanks fuzzy, nowhere, and perna. i know you all are right.

I am just in a bad spot right now. havent been posting much. and feel pretty bad about it.

On a good note its 74 days without SI....so thats a good thing i guess.

thanks again.....

Colleen

[nowheretorun]

74 days is excellent C... : )

[Cyran0]

CT, we are your friends.

Cyran0

[Cthomas]

im working on it.

Thanks Darrell....you guys are awesome!

Thanks fuzzy, perna......

Colleen

[jacq10]

((((((((Colleen)))))))))

I would most certainly notice.

I'm PM'ing...

[Kiya]

sure.... go off and post in a different place and see if we can find ya.
YES YOU MATTER. Oy. Remember black and white thinking - if one person does that, not *everyone* is gonna do that. ok?!?! I like what perna said - go back and tell em "dump me right" and see if that is what is really taking place.
Don't go off and do that again, eh? Go missing for a while and then post in new places looking for familiar posts.
you can still post in Si you know (if it doesn't triger you) - you're doing great and we all still miss ya. I miss you. =(
kiya

[Cthomas]

Im here. not going ANYWHERE... I love you guys. On a good note, i finally got a job i LOVE!!!!

Just needed to check in and hear from you my friends to see if I was still "wanted" here.

This was my first week. and it was awesome!

Love you guys. Thanks kiya and jac, and CY

Colleen

[bipolar_bear]

I am so glad you are not going anywhere Colleen. I would miss you if you ever decided otherwise. Congrats on your new job. I am happy you like it.

BB

[Cthomas]

(((Perna)))
(((Fuzzy)))
(((Bipolarbear)))
(((Kiya)))
(((Cyrano)))
(((nowheretorun)))
(((jacq)))

Love youguys....all of you..

Colleen

[ECHOES]

((((((((((( Colleen )))))))))))

That hurts so much. Sending gentle hugs

[Kiya]

yay! glad you got a job you love!!! I may also be in a new one on tuesday - temping, you know. Hopefully with far fewer triggers than my current placement.

Glad you're staying, Colleen!!!!
kiya

[Fuzzybear]

((((((((((( Colleen )))))))))))

[Rissie_and_another]

i haven't gotten to know you very well, but I know that you're here!!!!!! and you'd definately be missed if you left!!!!!!!!!!!!!
((((((((((((((((((((((COLLEEN)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
I know not only me, but all of PC would miss you and your kind heart!!! I suffer from depression too and i understand what your going through...keep your chin up! the sun will eventually shine through!!!!! good luck!!!!!
xoxoxox