as usual, tears, fears and depression

I went to see the endocrinologists today. my sugar was good and after they received test results on my thyroid, i know that will be normal too. in fact my physical inner body is well and healthy. too bad the brain doesn't know how to follow w/out help. I cried to my doc today. she wasn't use to it but i just told her the basics. she was very sweet and caring. I called the mental unit at the hospital today to find out what they do and to try and make a decision. she didn't call me back, hum. it was close to 5 so maybe she was already gone. I don't know about u guys but i find that mental health needs more help from the government. there is such a stigma attached to mh. i just get down thinking about it. after going out today i was extremley tired because i haven't been out all week. just laying in the bed crying. where do all those tears come from? my life as a child then teen- ager and on from there. i can't remember what happened yesterday but i can remember what happened years ago. I'm just so glad i can come here and ramble and let my feelings out. i just copy my post and put them in my journal then press submit. pj56

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how are you feeling now? yes, PC is great to journal and better, real feedback...

i hope things work out for you.... i agree mental health is a widespread issue for us in this country... ive known some who defend the human mind and claim 'illness' is an incorrect word to use in some cases.. i could agree with that

sometimes we just need a listening ear from someone who cares.... its hard to find IRL for some of us due to different reasons and events we've experienced..

im glad PC is working for you to express yourself... im sorry ive been so occupied and havent noticed all your threads right away... that is more a reflection on me than you....

hoping the best for you always....

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I'm glad your labs are normal and I'm so sorry you're suffering. I think you're a nice and interesting person. I'm glad you came to Psychcentral and I hope you feel better.

do you feel it is empowering when you do things like talk to your doctor a little bit about your depression, and even look for more ways to help your depression?

right now my depression is at the lowest it has ever been, even lower than last year when i was sent to the hospital psych unit. usually i just sit back and let the depression take hold and hope i hang on for the ride. in the last few weeks, i have actively pursued battling my depression. i found this site, i'm searching for a local support group, and i've decided to find a new psychiatrist. i'm starting to realize these steps are helping me feel better, if only just a tad better, but at this point i'll take what i can get. i'm starting to feel empowered over my depression instead of feeling powerless.

i agree with you about the government needing to get more involved with mental illnesses. more awareness and knowledge means more acceptance.

last month i read in an article that more military service men/women have committed suicide since coming back from the war in iraq than have been killed in iraq because of the war. they are committing suicide because of depression and ptsd. i know the government is doing better now than they have in the past, but that is completely unacceptable.

i was in the marine corps and served six months in saudi arabia during the first gulf war. only in the last few years has the effects of this gone down for me. since i'm a female, i wasn't involved in the direct fighting, but was one mile from the front line. i can only imagine the devastating aftermath of living with yourself after having to kill someone. i definitely do not feel the government has dealt with the mental illnesses caused due to fighting in a war. my heart goes out to these military servicemembers!