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I have been feeling pretty lost lately and I do not know why. I feel as though I am not connecting very well with anyone in my life. I am so lonely... I wish I had friends like I used to. I miss social contact so much that it is suffocating. I just don't fit in anywhere or with anyone.
My heart hurts and I just want to curl up to sleep with my cat all day long. Of course I have to go to work though...so off I go....

Why me sometimes,
Jessica

[(JD)]

(((shakes)))) sorry you are feeling so down. Yes, it's depression making you so. How long have you been feeling this way, this time? Sometimes we need extra sleep... and sometimes we need extra "exercise" like walking or such! Take care of yourself, don't push too hard, but try and make the best decisions you can... you'll come up for air in a little while.

[SeptemberMorn]

Some may scoff at the idea, but we do have a full moon. I've been feeling much like you do, Jess. The only thing that half-way excites me is that hubby will be home for about a week. He arrives this Saturday. SEE? I just got butterflies in my tummy! Don't know why because I know I won't get what I need from him... other than to "take" my hugs, kisses and "make" him cuddle with me to watch TV. Crap on a stick! I don't know why I bother! There's just no one else that I could ask that from; no close friends except one and she'd probably freak if I hugged her!

Does your cat cuddle with you when you want it to? Mine wants to at night and then's when I want space. He's so dang demanding, too! "Gemme! Gemme! Gemme!" ARGH! (LOL My next door neighbor is ouside talking on his cell phone. Apparently, he talking to a female because he said "I hear you that you want to see me... [interruption]" Then he snickers and says "That's a gender thing." LOL) You suppose that's what wrong with my cat?? LOLOL ARGH!!

The more I think about it, the more I think someone should plan a "psychcentral party." A real one, where people from the same region get together to meet and have a good time. Hey! It's been done!

[Maya]

I agree about feeling down the past week - one of the worst weeks I have had and I also agree about the full moon. Plus, here in FL we all have "hurricane stress syndrome" (that was coined by someone here on the forum). We finally got power back tonight (been out since Sunday afternoon) and just having light in the house made a huge difference in my mood! Living in the darkness with no computer link, no reading, no TV, no hot water, getting ice every day is the pits - but we are the fortunate ones - we at least still have a house with a roof that does not least.

[Wants2Fly]

My Florida T also referred to hurricane stress syndrome in a recent conversation -- so I'm not sure the phrase was coined on this forum

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Sky,
I have been feeling this way this time for about a week or so. I try to give myself more sleep then the average person. My boyfriend teases me because he gets less then eight hours a night and I try to give myself at least nine. He just does not understand that with my depression I need to listen to my body a bit more. If I am tired at 10 then I need to sleep by then...if not until 3am then I need to sleep then. I think my biggest problem is getting up in the morning. I have a really hard time being alert early in the day, but I am fine until late at night. Go figure. I have stopped trying to "make" myself sleep because I just does not work.
As far as exercise goes I have been trying to get out more and do more. I have also been trying to add more vegetables and less carbs to my diet.
Thanks for your kind words.

Jessica

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Sis Tomi,
*Laugh* You are too cute!! I agree with the full moon thing, but I think that this is the result of the change of seasons. Every year for as long as I can remember I get completely messed up when the seasons change and right before we change the clocks back. Last year I woke up at 2:30 am every night for almost two months before the clocks changed. That drove me insane!!! I am just grateful that this is not happening this year.
Hopefully within the next few weeks I will settle down a little bit.
I know about the cat thing. My cat is sooo needy, but it is one of the reasons that I love him. Except when I am trying to get stuff done... I am grateful that he is here everyday though. He is my little buddy.
Is this the neighbor that you want to hit with your cart? He sounds creepy?
You must have read my mind.. Lately I have been thinking about how awesome it would be to have a real psychcentral party. That would be great for all of us. I really wish that it could happen..maybe someday.

Jessica

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Mars,
That must really be awful!! I feel so badly for you guys down there. I hope that these hurricanes stop deciding to make trips over your way. Enough is enough already. It is nice to see you have power again though and I hope all is well.

Jessica