[starfishblue]

I am so blue. Another problem has been added to my list of issues: Multiple Sclerosis. Diagnosed after 1 week hospital stay (which I can't afford). MS along with major depression is my battle. I cannot return to work because it is an oppressive and hostile environment. I am so darn sad and don't know where to turn. I am hopeless. Hopeless, confused, and don't know where to turn, what to do. I had been staying afloat financially, but I can't do it anymore - and without a job on the horizon, I feel I am on a sinking ship. I don't know how to help myself - I can't believe in 5 years I've gone from this independant, smart, fun-loving women to a totally depressed, sick, and mentally and physically exhausted women.

[(JD)]

www.NMSS.org A wonderful resource! All is not lost because of MS. It could be the wearing down to depression has been because of the MS, and you just didn't know it til now.

[DOWNINNATICK]

Hi Starfish;
The life boat is here in the group, so come in and talk anytime.
You are a strong person and happiness is near.

((starfishblue)))
So hard to deal with all this at one time

take time to try to find out all you can

skys link may help alot

we are all here for you

muffy

[nightbird]

:wave_hello

Hi starfishblue !

welcome

nightbird

[Fuzzybear]

((((((((((((( starfishblue ))))))))))))))

[alevin]

Hi,
I am not long in this website really,and not used to using these forums, but I just happened to stumble accross your "cry for help", any help I suppose, as it sounds similar in that respect to what I just put in my "biography" [3rd time round ,as I had to disgard the first two,as they were too long!] but I was trying to express the powerelessness I feel in a world that cannot cope with other peoples powererlessness!

So I was touched by your needs,
is there anyone that you can talk to [on the phone perhaps]?
Is your job so vital to you at the moment?
I wish I could help....

let me know ,if you can soon, as I have to pop out shortly, but will be able to return your mail later on,

take care for now,
I will mail you later,

alevin

[mountainstream]

(((((((starfishblue))))))))

[Shirlz08]

I graduated college about a year or so ago. Afterwards, in my area, I couldn't really find a job in my field--nor did I feel all that confident about my skills. I'm working a job with benefits, but the pay is low. I hurt my knee recently and am supposed to have surgery tomorrow morning. Last Wednesday, the skin on my lower thigh felt like someone was taking sandpaper to it and then a few boil like red spots showed up the next day. I'm scared it's staph and that they won't let me have the surgery tomorrow. I can't afford to pay if they charge for a canceled surgery. A person drowns in constant copays, fees, and the deductible. I know. Plus, the other day, my entire department was warned because of a regular problem that we could be let go.

It's been constant stress. My Mom was guilting me the other day for not coming home to take care of her, my brother and grandpa. I felt so guilty that I can't even take care of myself, let alone them. I've been fighting all my life to have a chance and get it together. There are times when I just breakdown, alone, wishing I had a mom I could be held by. I was wishing that I could get some form of comfort. I started looking on the net for support yesterday and found this site.

What little I can offer you is this: I know it's hard and it just keeps coming, but someone cares. Don't give up to the depression or the disease. I'm sure everyone on this site or in the forum would agree, we're here for you.