[BlackTears]

Well I must say now that its dark and quiet and im the only one whos up Im slightly starting to miss my baby.... I miss my oldest but not like I miss my youngest. I guess that sounds very mean but I just mean my sana bug always stays away and so im use to it and I talk to her everyday and every night to say goodnight. My diddle daddle is never away from me ever!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I cant talk to her on the phone because she just smiles and nods in the phone so she dosnt actually say anything though she can talk very well.. I call my sister every day to check on her and she tells me shes fine and not crying at all. In the last two days I have cleaned my house top to bottom finally went through tons of old clothes to give away. Gosh I get upset going through clothes my sana bug is so tall for her age and she keeps growing brand new clothes shes only wore once or twice I gotta give away. My hubby is 6'5 so my sana got the tall gene and diddle daddle well shes tall but not like her sister. My six year old looks like shes 10 she already stands as tall as my chest lol.. Tonight my hubby and I went fishing and when we came home had a stupid argument over something so trivial and off to bed he went and here I am up alone... I guess im not to upset really because this is the norm have a day or so of doing ok then we go through a week or so of fighting.. Its so the norm that in some ways it dosnt even phase me anymore. On the plus side I caught two fish tonight, Im baking a cake right now and im finishing up some laundry..