[In_The_Darkness]

hey!

I am so angry now. This is just getting out of control. Have now not seen T for 3 weeks! Seeing him on Tuesday.

I started to get better, but things are just getting worse. I got left by my gf yesterday because of my depression, how is that fair ? 14 and I do know what love is and I don't feel it anymore!

I'm slipping away from my freinds, and I am dreading the fact that if I don't get better in time, NHS (our health service) is putting me on medication!
I am scared of going on medication and what will happen!

I need to make it go away! I need love! I need freindship!

I went crazy yesterday - I didn't believe anything was real, and spiralled into denial!

X.X.HELP.X.X

[pegasus]

Hello mikkyhill, nothing wrong with having medication for a while if it helps to get you through a bad patch.

I know how hard it can be without seeing T, hold on to that Tuesday!

[bipolar_bear]

(((((((((((((((((((((mikkyhill)))))))))))))))))))))))) It is so hard when t is unavailable for three weeks. I am sorry that it has happened. I know Tuesday may seem a long time from now. Maybe we can help unti then?

You may consider if meds will help you feel better while you work on your depression. If they will help your relationships. Just ideas.

Know I am here and I care. PM me anytime.

BB

[kebsfroggy]

Hi mikkyhill

Since I could be your grandmother I'm not sure I can be very helpful.

I'm sorry you are hurting. Love is not something you only have when you are an adult but I'm sure you have been told that.

Losing someone you care deeply about is also not limited to adulthood. It hurts whether you are 14 or 104.

I am assuming you have been going to see a T but stopped. You say you are seeing your T Tuesday. Maybe you can tell him of your concern about going on meds.

Having to go on meds is scarry but can be very helpful. . Each med works differently so some experimentation is necessary. You might not get the results you were expecting on the first try. That's why you have a Pdoc, so you can find the right one for you.

Feel free to post here anytime you need to release your anger or ask a question or just to visit. Most everyone here is suffering or has suffered depression so we do understand.

Oh and as a frog of little brain, I have a habit of talking way too much.

I hope things work out for you. Glad you stopped by to meet us.

[nightbird]

No, I won't go away.

It's okay to get medicinal help now and then.

You can then, after using medical advice, use natural herbals and such.

But first, listen to your docs.

bless your heart.

peace and comfort,
nightbird

[(JD)]

Meds can help for the time being. Don't be afraid of them, nor of how they can help you when so desperate.

Sorry to hear your gf left... that happens often during the teen years I think. It used to anyway.

At 14 you have many years ahead...and of real love, not teen love. As you mature, your ability and knowledge of love will too...and it will be sooo much better I bet. Hang in there!

[In_The_Darkness]

Thanks so much for your support. Hugs to all of you. I can always look here for help